Thursday, May 25, 2017

r.n. musecat - 5/25/17 (Including artists talk tomorrow!)

r. n. musecat
The renaissance negresse museletter/catalog

Art | Inspiration | Community

by Cassendre Xavier

Thursday, May 25, 2017

TABLE OF CONTENTS
1)WHO IS THE RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE?
2)ARTIST TALK TOMORROW!
3)UPCOMING EVENTS
4)FUNDRAISING UPDATE
5)THE RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE CATALOG OF CURIOUS CREATIONS


CONTENTS OF TABLE

1)WHO IS THE RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE?
Haitian-American multi-media healing artist Cassendre Xavier coined the term *"renaissance negresse" in 2002. A musician, writer, fine artist, and actress, Cassendre (who also has created under the names Amethyste Rah, Amrita Waterfalls, and Endowed Goddess) says the term describes a black woman who is skilled or gifted in 3 or more arts. Xavier is a recipient of a $15,000 Leeway Transformation Award which "supports women and trans artists creating art for social change". Cassendre founded and directed several Philadelphia arts initiatives including The Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002) and The Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003). She also teaches classes, and leads or co-leads workshops and support groups related to creativity, personal growth, recovery (from abuse and addictions), and relationships. She is originally from Brooklyn, NY and has been living creatively and joyfully in Philadelphia since 1990. [*"Negresse, Negre: In the French- and Spanish-speaking Caribbean Islands, these words often have a connotation of affection, entirely non-racial in meaning. `Ma petite negresse, mon negre, are equivalent to `My dear, my darling, my sweet.'" [From Masters of the Dew, a contemporary classic novel by the Haitian author Jacques Roumain, translated by Langston Hughes and Mercer Cook.]

2)ARTIST TALK TOMORROW!
Hello, Friends & Total Complete Strangers!

Just want to let you know I will be a panelist on an artists' talk tomorrow, Friday, May 26th, sometime after Phoebe's performance at 7:30pm. Joining me will be all the artists present, including my friend, poet Angel Hogan.

Location:
Pete Checchia Photo & Art Gallery on Thurs. June 8th, 6:30pm, 735 N. 2nd St., Philadelphia, PA 19123

A little about it:

Part of an exhibit called I/We In/Out Our/Own.
Curator: Heather Raquel Phillips
http://www.heatheraquelphilllips.com
Remaining dates: May 26th, and June 8th
Permanent install artists:
Eric Anthony Berdis

Closing reception:
Thursday June 8th
6:30pm - Cassendre Xavier (poetry) http://cassendrexavier.wordpress.com
7:30pm - Angel Hogan performs (poetry) http://angelhogan.com

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(after writing all that I Googled the Facebook event and found this copy, from the artist, but I won't delete what I wrote!)
I/We In/Out Our/Own is a show featuring work & performances by artists who create spaces outside of normative margins, work that demostrates the refusal of negation. The exhibition calls to question not merely the need for equal rights but rather potential alternatives. We ask the question, what happens when you refuse what has been historically refused to you?

Curated by:
Heather Raquel Phillips

Opening reception second Thursday, May 11th, 6-9:30 pm
Performance @7:30 pm by Eric Anthony Berdis
Performance @8:30 pm by Gabriel Ojeda-Sague

Visual Install by:
Liz Barr
Phoebe Wilde (nee Wang)
Eric Anthony Berdis

Performance Friday, May 26th @7:30 pm by:
Phoebe Wilde

Closing Reception second Thursday, June 8th 6-9:30 pm
Performance @6:30 pm Cassendre Xavier
Performance @7:30 pm Angel Hogan
Performance @8:30 pm Betty Smithsonian

3)UPCOMING EVENTS
Reading poetry at Pete Checchia Photo & Art Gallery on Thurs. June 8th, 6:30pm, 735 N. 2nd St., Philadelphia, PA 19123

Singing at the Lansdowne Farmer's Market, 30 N. Lansdowne Ave., Lansdowne PA, on Saturday June 24th, 10:30am-12:30pm. Cassendre has written for Wisdom Magazine's webzine since 2009. For more information about her upcoming workshop "Remembering to Dream: Focusing on the Positive Throughout Life's Challenges", or her other projects, visit Cassendre at http://cassendrexavier.wordpress.com

Singing, reading poetry, doing workshops, and moderating artist and audience discussions at 11th Black Women's Arts Festival (Sat-Sun, Sept. 30 & Oct 1 at www.TheRotunda.org, 4014 Walnut St, Philadelphia 19104).

Facilitating the workshop Soulmate Attraction for the Rest of Us: Dating & Relationships for the Polyamorous, Recovering, Survivor & Tantric. Monday, Sept. 18th, 6:30pm-8:30pm, at www.TheRotunda.org, 4014 Walnut St, Philadelphia 19104). $20 Admission


4)FUNDRAISING UPDATE
Recent grants received:

$2,500 Leeway March 2017 Art & Change Grant, to produce the 11th Black Women's Arts Festival

Love gifts received in the mail... Thank you!

Patrons:

My $10,000 Fundraiser for all of 2017. https://www.gofundme.com/CXInspiration2017

My Paypal link: http://paypal.me/CXInspiration

Checks/money order donations:
PAYABLE TO: Cassendre Xavier
Mail to: Cassendre Xavier
c/o Bindlestiff Books
4530 Baltimore Ave
Philadelphia, PA 19143-3705


5)THE RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE CATALOG OF CURIOUS CREATIONS
a)Wisdom Magazine articles
I've been writing for Wisdom Magazine's online edition since March 2009, and you can see my articles at: http://wisdom-magazine.com/ArticleArchives.aspx?isLike=true&author=cassendre%20xavier
b)Musical & guided meditation albums and tracks:
c)YouTube videos
Music, poetry, guided meditations, humor, raw food stuffs, and much, much more at http://youtube.com/cassendrexavier 
d)Free, 24-hour Inspiration Line 215-552-8850


Thank you to all of my friends who care, and to all my supporters of various kinds. You who know who you are!


In art, community, and joy no matter what,

Cassendre Xavier
renaissance negresse
multi-media healing artist & organizer
humyn, being.
http://cassendrexavier.wordpress.com


(c) Copyright 2017 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved, and never let it be said!







Saturday, May 13, 2017

Don't Wait to Share Your Self-Help/Personal Growth!

FOR INSPIRING SELF-HELP/PERSONAL GROWTH/INSPIRATIONAL/MOTIVATIONAL AUTHORS/SPEAKERS/PRODUCERS: Don't wait until you have solved 50 of your problems before you start sharing how you addressed the first 25. Even if you have only solved 5, share how you did that. Even if you only solved 1, share how you did that. Your audience will not only find and support your work, they NEED it, and they need you!
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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com

Friday, May 12, 2017

Facebook & Eventbrite links for Soulmate Workshop 9/18/17 Philadelphia!

Here's the Facebook Event link for my upcoming workshop Soulmate Attraction for the Rest of Us: Dating & Relationships for the Polyamorous, Recovering, Survivor & Tantric (which I've presented at Poly Living Conference, Sisterspace Weekend, and write about at Wisdom Magazine)! The ticket link is also included! https://m.facebook.com/events/1922395454673138

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Thursday, May 11, 2017

Soulmate Attraction Workshop tickets available!

Soulmate Attraction Workshop on Sept. 18, 2017

Save the Date! Soulmate Attraction: A Dating & Relationships Workshop for the Polyamorous, Recovering, Survivor & Tantric. Faciliator: Cassendre Xavier. Monday, September 18th, 2017, 6:30pm-7:30pm at The Rotunda, 4014 Walnut St, Philadelphia, PA 19104 $20 Donation. 
Facebook Event and description coming soon!


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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Monday, May 8, 2017

Fighting Not to Say Good-Bye

Fighting Not to Say Good-Bye

by Cassendre Xavier

I was getting into the car of a sweetie who was waiting for me in the parking lot of a supermarket. As I was getting settled in and putting on my seatbelt, he started becoming annoyed with me and telling me to "just finish" the poker game he had been playing on his phone while waiting for me.
 We had been shopping at the same time, when I saw him checking out before me... I was still shopping. I began checking my phone for text messages from him perhaps asking me to hurry. Since I received none, I figured it was fine that I was finished later than he was.
 But when I began having difficulty finishing his game for him, because I don't know how to play poker and I hate being rushed and pressured, he said he had been playing the game the whole time and I took so long and the game has to be finished now... I told him he could have continued playing it before we took off to our next destination. He began getting so frustrated and angry, that it stood out. 
 I felt annoyed myself, and I wondered what changed from the happiness and jokes that began our errand to the tenseness and anger that ended it.
 I realized he may be upset that he was about to drop me off for an overnight visit with someone I had been seeing for twice as long as I had been seeing him (I am polyamorous). Actually, it is only now that I realize that might have played a part. Initially I thought he just didn't want our hanging out time to end. He maybe didn't want to say good-bye, so instead, he picked a fight in order to making parting easier.
 What brought that concept to mind was something I had experienced years earlier.
 I had been in my first real relationship, my first time combining sex and love (which was an intense challenge for me as a survivor of incest/sexual abuse), and my partner and I were in the early, honeymoon stage of our relationship.
 Once, we spend an afternoon and evening at her sister's house, who was away at the time. I believe we were childsitting my partner's young nephew and niece. We had such an amazingly sweet and pleasant time. I suppose it was like playing house, only none of it felt superficial or pretend. I had a good relationship with her family, and her nephew liked me a lot (niece was quite younger and I had just recently met her), and we three - partner, nephew, and I had enjoyed several outings together. One time, her nephew was walking between us and linked our hands together. The evening was, as I now recall, one of the fondest memories I will probably ever have. We had equal times watching the kids play, feeding them, supervising them, putting them to bed, doing our separate things, and also hanging out together she and I. It was just wonderful.
 When it was time to go we were saying good-bye on the front porch. It was dark, nighttime, and suddenly I began to feel angry. Before I knew it, I was filled with feelings of contempt for her, and we began to argue. My therapists have always said I am "very insightful" so it's probably not a surprise that I noticed the huge difference between how happy I had been only moments earlier, and how completely pissed off I was now. Or more imporantly, how fond I had been of my partner before, and how much I hated her now. What brought that on? What had changed?
 I realized two things:
1)Being angry makes saying good-bye to her easier.
And...
2)I feel bad leaving her now.

I realized I didn't want to leave. I realized I was feeling sad. I was sad about going out into the night, to my sad existence without her. I wanted to stay at the house and keep being happy. I wanted the comforts of that spaceous home, compared to where I was living, which was not nearly as comfortable nor spacious.
 I was walking away from moments and conditions of happiness into moments and conditions of sadness. And that's why I had picked a fight - so that I could feel anger at my partner, because the alternative was sadness... The alternative felt much worse than anger.

Realizing this now I can see how my anger must have inflicted sadness onto my partner. What I was trying not to experience myself, I caused her to experience.

Thankfully, I realized this moments after picking the fight, and I shared my observation with her. We talked about it and parted sweetly, with a warm long hug.
We both felt better about the therapeutic moment.

I wish I could have had a similar moment and experience with the persun who inspired me to remember and write about this story. As it was, I didn't feel he would be receptive to it, as he seemed so angry when I walked away from his car, I didn't even say good-bye.

A couple of hours later I texted him and he didn't reply. I focus on being able to share and experience however and with whomever I can. And when I cannot, I write, and I hope.



(c) Copyright 2017 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. Visit http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com
 
 



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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com