Monday, October 23, 2017

Higher Self/Higher Flow quote by Sanaya Roman

Your Higher Self guides you to the higher flow through your heart. If you have a choice to make, choose what you are drawn to and would love to do. Take the action your heart is leading you to. Do not force yourself to do things. If you catch yourself saying, "I should or have to do this," doing it is not for your higher good or aligned with the Higher Will.

Spiritual Growth, by Sanaya Roman

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Morning 23 October 2017

I slept well and woke up feeling content, comfortable, rested, and positive. 
I am thinking about all the beautiful quotes out there about "morning," "a new day," and "starting over."

Today I hope to make significant progress in my professional, fitness, and relationship goals (job hunting, exercise, plans with my sister, and soulmate attraction).

I hold a vision of my evening ending with a smile on my face and satisfaction at having accomplished these.

Wishing you a peaceful, pleasant, and productive day as well!


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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Sunday, October 22, 2017

Had a good day

It was relaxing, and pleasant. Last night my nesting partner's daughter prepared to go out for a Halloween party, went out, then returned for a bit with a friend, and they were running around in their heels making happy child noises. I say child even though they're in their early 20s - like Judge Judy anyone under 30 is a kid to me! 
 Early this afternoon he and I went grocery shopping, which I always enjoy doing with him. I swear being domestic these days is the sex we used to have when we were dating.
 Then we returned to spend a little separate time, then watched a Chinese martial arts movie starring the great Jet Li, then we watched a little Last Temptation of Christ while eating the rice, broccoli, and chicken breasts with mushroom soup gravy he cooked for dinner tonight.
 Then more separate time till he came up to bed where he is now softly snoring, and where I will soon join him in sounds and slumberational qualities.



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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


New YouTube video! "My Progress Update October 2017"

Dear Friends & Total Complete Strangers,

Please enjoy!

https://youtu.be/qS-vRohiRGM

Video description:

Published on Oct 22, 2017
Leeway Transformation Award-winning multi-media artist Cassendre Xavier shares her progress and plans, including future plans for the Black Women's Arts Festival, which she founded in 2003.
Visit Cassendre at http://cassendrexavier.wordpress.com
Free, 24-hour Inspiration Line 215-552-8850

Enemy of Floors (new poem)

This is a little
fat girl poem
Lately I've been noticing 
that by the sounds they make
I seem to be
the enemy
of wooden floors.

-Cassendre Xavier 


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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Saturday, October 21, 2017

Become a Champion Today! (Nikki Woods quote)

TODAY: Remember that champions do not become champions when they win the event, but in the hours, weeks, months and years they spend preparing for it. You have to put in the work. What are you doing to prepare for your victory? --Nikki Woods

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Katharine Hepburn "Live Next Door" quote



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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


How to Feel Happy Instantly (Scripture Says)

Dear Friends & Total Complete Strangers!

I wrote this quickly, between 6:30 and 8:30 this morning. Please forgive any mistakes :)

[I am a spiritually eclectic, Fundamentalist Christian- reared interfaith minister ordained in February 1969 by God at birth (Aquarius, baby!), and in September 2010 by law. Since 1991 I have ministered through the creative and tantric arts. Atheists and agnostics are welcome!)

I was lying in bed just now, mustering up the gumption to get up and relieve my mild bladderal situation (when you really gotta pee it's much easier to get out of bed to do it; when you "should" do it, so as to ensure you are not rushing to do it later, and when it's a little chilly and you are so comfy in the bed it's a lot harder) when I remembered how unhappy I am. Or I felt a little depressed or something. Maybe the darkness of near dawn brought my major life problems to light - I don't know. Maybe it's just the nature of my bipolar disorder, or maybe we all from time to time (or often, in your case) feel this way. I know I do.
What if one of the reasons we feel this way in the dark hours of the wee morning is to pray, meditate, or think about what we can do to be of service to others?
As I thought about what I could do to feel good, I put the question out and asked, "How can I feel good? What will make me feel good?"
I know and I recalled that serving others makes us feel good. It is very fulfilling. I made a mental note to really try to do something good for someone every day, even if it's just smiling at a stranger when I am out or being a better listener when someone is speaking to me. Even if it is shortening my response time to answering an email. Even if it is just adding a new and hopefully inspiring post to my social media. And of course my writing is an attempt at adding more joy, comfort, and enlightenment to the world.

Yes, helping others is a great way to feel happy. Later this morning I am scheduled to help my sister move some of her friend's storage unit belongings to a nearby dump. She has already expressed how much she appreciates my help with that, and I already feel better having begun the preparatory tasks, which include doing my travel itinerary, good feelings and actions, and it hasn't even happened yet!

Other thoughts came to mind as I continued to ask how I could feel better, including, "Pray without ceasing." I wondered what that would look like in the physical sense. I think it might probably be:

* Serving others
* Practicing mindfulness
* Practicing constant gratitude

Scripture Says:

* Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks. -Thessalonians 5:16-17

I also recalled the passage to love God with everything we've got:

Scripture Says:

* You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength. -Deuteronomy 6:5

I wonder how to do that. Sometimes I am so devoid of any loving feelings whatsoever, and I have so many god, father, and god-the-father issues, plus I grew up with some really messed up ideas of how love should be expressed, so I have difficulty loving God at all let alone with all my heart, soul, and strength.

Then I remembered my talents, my gifts.

I remembered how even as a child of 12 or 13 I thought there was really no such thing as sin, but if there were a sin, not using one's talents was one of them. I believed that and I used mine: I took music lessons for, and played several instruments from age 3 to 16 in school, and then onward. I wrote and sang and performed for people at church and parties.

* Using one's talents honors God, serves others, makes us happy, and keeps us well. (I'm sure there is scripture to back this up, but I don't feel like researching it right now as I am to get up soon and there's more to write of what I actually do want to spend my time and energy on!)

Lastly, in thinking the question, "How can I feel better, or feel good?" I got:

* Do the right thing.

I thought of the Spike Lee movie, Do The Right Thing.
I thought of the 12 Step saying, "Do the next right thing."

And I recalled perhaps the most important bit of biblical advice:

Love your neighbor as yourself.

I think the biggest thing about that for me is the importance of self-love.
How can we care for our neighbor if we don't even care for ourselves?

So once again it comes down to the importance of self-love, something I also write a lot about.

One way to instantly feel better about yourself is to make "progress notes."

Think about your day, every day, and either mentally or actually list the things you did that were good and/or showed some kind of progress in your life.

I believe that when we do things things we can have more happy moments, for ourselves and for others.

Lastly, to anyone who may be grappling with spiritual or religious choices and questions, as I have been lately and from time to time, going way back, here is some advice a longtime supporter gave me:

"Wherever you go with this, it does not have to be complete or extreme, but gentle. No need to control, just pray and ask and listen and let Him in, and you will find your way."

And if you want to learn more about anything at all, including reconciling Christianity with being a woman, abuse survivor, gay or trans, or what some of our greatest thinkers are saying about atheism and agnosticism, look no further than Google and YouTube!

All is well and don't be a slave to fear.

Hope this helped.

Thank you for reading!


Links of interest:

[Blog][http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com]
[Erotic blog][http://amritawaterfalls.blogspot.com]
[Music downloads][http://cdbaby.com/all/cassendre]
[YouTube channel][http://youtube.com/cassendrexavier]
[Facebook profile][http://Facebook.com/cassendrexavier]
[Twitter profile][http://Twitter.com/cassendrexavier]

Friday, October 20, 2017

Sunshine & Soapy Showers

Whether sunshine, oxygen, smiles, or nice and soapy showers, no matter how challenging, I can always find lots to appreciate about my day. I hope you can and do, too!

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Survivor's Corner: Compersion

[I'm an incest and child abuse survivor which left PTSD to go along with my natural born bipolar disorder.  It all messes with my head which therapy handles along with friendship, sex, and possibly the biggest help of all: writing.]

Note: Compersion is when you are happy your partner is happy with someone else in addition to their being happy with you. Compersion is all about happiness. :)

My nesting partner has a college-attending daughter and she lives with him.
 I am triggered all. The. Time by their relationship. 
 She is the most important living woman to him, not me. It makes me feel effing horrible.
 It doesn't help that he and I were only casually dating when he invited me to stay with him as I was without a place of my own at the time. 
 He really appreciates how housewifely I am and we both enjoy nesting together very much, but we stopped dating when I started staying there in February and the closest we come to that now is running errands, being in the house, or sleeping together (with cuddles and the rare occurrence of sexual activity which I must initiate because he says anything else would be taking advantage of me).

Tonight he arrived at around 8pm and hung out with his daughter until 10, totally didn't come upstairs where I was until that time. Then talked very briefly with me, then went back downstairs till 11pm when she came up to go to bed.
 I felt horrible, felt ignored and neglected and talked myself through my emotions, mentally, as I resumed the practice of [guitar playing and singing][http://cassendrexavier.bandcamp.com] I had been doing since he arrived.

I reminded myself that he told me recently,when I lamented yet again about his spending more time with her, "She likes talking to me." And it's true, they do have an easy rapport with each other that his and mine cannot come close to. I am stiff, literal, and positive, soft-speaking, and they are loud and enjoy cursing and complaining. I get the feeling often times that they are putting on a more formal or classy face around me a lot of the time, in speaking.
 I know he appreciates me, but she doesn't from time to time, and she. She said she didn't want me here when I first arrived. Things have gotten much better, but I am still living with a man and with a woman the man prefers over me.

In my weekly psychotherapy session today I told my therapist that I recently had an incestuous nightmare about my nesting partner. It was the same dream I have had about the perpetrator since the early 90s, only my nesting partner was the perpetrator in the dream. 

It's because I am often triggered by him and his daughter, and because he is something of a daddy to me.

Back to the title. As I sang and played guitar I felt compersion for him enjoying the company of his daughter. Then I felt creeped out with that analogy,which is usually reserved for polyamorous relationships. 
 Either way, it helped, as did writing this.

Thank you for reading.

More about Survivors Corner at my column at Wisdom Magazine [here][http://tinyurl.com/CXWisdom]
And on my Facebook profile [here][http://Facebook.com/cassendrexavier]
I have a YouTube channel you might enjoy [here][http://Youtube.com/cassendrexavier]




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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Bipolar Reactions

Things happen. Problems come up. Questions come up.
If you have bipolar disorder you make radical changes and rash decisions. I find I have been doing that with my relationships. In the past 6 months I have ended and resumed relations with several active and potential partners. The slightest things set me off. I will be writing about this more, in hopes that my behavior will mellow out, and to offer insight, understanding,  and increased patience to my partners.


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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Being rich isn't just about money (Bubzbeauty quote)

"Being rich isn't just about money. You can be rich from happiness. You can be rich from knowledge. Some people are so poor, all they have is money. Remember, You can buy a house, but not a home. You can buy sex, but not love. You can buy a bed, but not rest. You can buy a clock, but not time. You can buy fame, but not respect. You can buy a book, but not knowledge."
  - Bubz, of YouTube channel Bubzbeauty 


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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Friday, October 13, 2017

Pray Without Ceasing



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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Thursday, October 12, 2017

Bipolar/PTSD Chronicles: Writing & Depression

One of the things I appreciate most about writing is that I can do it even when I'm depressed. Whether kvetching or moaning or whining or ranting or peptalking I can still write.

I didn't know I was depressed until I got some pics from my nesting partner sharing his day with me.

 I had texted him that I wasn't going out today but had been doing housework instead. He texted back thank you and to rest because it was cold and wet out anyway. That felt nice and then I saw an email response from him to the email I had sent earlier in which I reminded him that morning time is for me a time of prayer, meditationaries and reflectitudes. (He had been playfully kicking me, trying to get my attention as I was on my tablet.)

 I told him how important writing is to me, and especially when I'm going through a crisis, and since I'm not working right now I feel especially called to write for my own and others inspiration. 

 If I were still living in the city I would be more likely to go out and busy myself, going to the library, running errands, and volunteer as I have for years,

 But since leaving my volunteer position and co-working space of 4.5 years in September I am no longer commuting regularly to the city. I am now in the suburbs with little to do but eat, watch TV, gain weight, and write. I am glad to have the last bit because it will help me do other things I should, such as exercise, sing, play guitar, write songs, go out, get a job, volunteer, etc., not necessarily in that order, as there are feelings of difficulty associated with more than one of those things.

 I am writing this from bed and that gives me hope, because I am writing.

 Writing is a solutely amazing. I am grateful to my friend and mentor who told me that it, not my singing/music, is my primary gift and talent. I don't feel that's the truth, only his perspective, but it does give me more value as a writer, in my eyes. It helps me appreciate myself more,and it makes me more excited about writing.

 Today I feel depressed. I canceled my weekly therapy session for the second week in a row. 
I am happy and proud that in the last three days I have eaten brown rice, collards, beans, sardines, garlic-infused EVOO, apple cider vinegar, unsweetened almond milk, I have done less lying down and a little back and stomach ("core") strengthening exercising, prayer and meditation, housework,writing, and less worrying!
I hope to write more, exercise more, eat less and worry less.
Happy to be here, and thanks for reading.
My readers are necessary for my writing to continue and grow, and writing is my medicine. It gives me a sense of meaning, purpose, and fulfillment to, in,and for my life. So thanks again :)


Links to more of my writings:

Wisdom Magazine, monthly column since 2009:
http://tinyurl.com/CXWisdom

Primary blog (including poems, recipes, and more spirituality): [here][http://cassEndrExavier.blogspot.com]

Erotic blog:
http://AmritaWaterfalls.blogspot.com



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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


What Have I Done with My Life?

If you ever wake up
a little too early in the morning 
And the question comes to your mind
"What have I done with my life?"
If the question comes with fear
worry and concern
that you made a lot of mistakes
took a lot of wrong turns
did it all the wrong way
and well and truthfully failed

Don't stay in that place
Think instead these answers

"I was alive.
I lived.
I loved.
I learned.
And I tried."

We are always doing the best we can
with what we have
and with what we know 
At any given moment 

Have compassion for yourself 
And try to see yourself 
Through the eyes of Spirit
That which Created you
The Most High
See the bigger picture

And say to yourself 

"I am still alive.
And as long as I'm alive
I can still try
And try again.
I am thankful. 
I am grateful. 
I am excited for another chance.
I will try to do my best as always.
And all is well!"


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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Monday, October 9, 2017

Considering Christianity: On Addiction & Conversion

Dear Friends & Total Complete Strangers!

I was reviewing this passage of scripture:

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1 Corinthians 6:19-20.
New King James Version (NKJV)

19 Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? 20 For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's.
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I found it when I was searching for what Jesus says about gluttony. Sorry, but I've had Jesus on the brain since my angel teacher Doreen Virtue became a born again in January 2017, but I ignored that until I watched one of her new YouTube videos last week. Since then and probably in part because of my fundamentalist Christian upbringing I have been thinking a lot about Jesus Christ.

I feel I want to become an honest-to-God Christian but I have many fears about doing so, such as losing the physical perks of not givin' a good goddamn (ie. being largely pagan and guilt-free when it comes to earthly and bodily delights), and looking like a bonafide idiot to the brilliant atheists, agnostics, and intellectuals that I so admire.

Today I ate a lot of ice cream, and retired for the evening very early, at 5pm, so as to not eat again.
I ate no fruit and not enough vegetables (just some collards with my brown rice and dark red kidney beans).

I and many of my readers have eating disorders and other addiction issues, and if you're one, I'm wondering if you ever considered or tried applying a religious approach to address yours? Or perhaps you tried and it didn't work? Or perhaps yours are not a concern right now?

Because I weigh the most I ever have, and the other health and age-related issues of my life right now, I feel compelled to make some significant changes in my daily habits.

The idea seems overwhelming but I feel comforted by an inner spiritual voice of wisdom that says, "Relax. You don't have to change everything at once, or right away. You're on the right path and keep up the good work. You can do it. Be brave and get the right help to align with you. You will do it."

Does recovery from addiction have to be a scary and daunting prospect?

Why is even Jesus frightening to me?

Is it because he is male and comes with the wrath of "God His Father?"

Is my childhood experience of abuse the cause of my fear of God and if so, how will I ever get over that? Or is it normal resistance of "the flesh"?

All of my spiritual mentors are white women with soft voices. Very non-threatening. I can't even have a black female psychotherapist. Is that related to my PTSD?

One thing I do like about Christianity is that it's very simple. The rules are very clear. There aren't tons of books to read: only one.
It isn't hard to find places to worship: there are tons.

What will I do about my erotic artistry? Will I study Gnosticism more, or just stick with the idea of a sex-positive Jesus who would allow what I'm doing there?
When I think about it now, I feel I am bringing the lust out of people and maybe that's not something I went to be responsible for. I don't want to be a temptation, because I don't know everyone's spiritual practice, preference, or goals.

I'm not sure what I will be doing, but right now I know there is a big opportunity for me to make a positive change that could significantly alter the course of my life, if I'm willing to be brave enough to face all the many many fears involved.

I don't like all the sad, frightening, and fearful feelings I have when I think about my Christian past and upbringing.
That's why I left it long ago for the warm and fuzzy, easy breezy New Age lifestyle I switched to in my 20s.
But today the words of Dr. Phil came to mind: "How's that workin' for ya?"

How has my eclectic, interfaith, anything-goes-as-long-as-you-don't-hurt-anyone spirituality served my mind, body, spirit and lifestyle over the years?

What are the results?
After all, what are the fruits my spirituality has produced.

I am asking myself that today.
And as I discover the answers, I will write again.

Thank you for reading :)

Cassendre

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Responding Dos & Don'ts

Please DO:
* Pray for me or send me positive vibes/hold a vision of my well-being/ wish me well
* Leave a positive comment if you wish (No questions please as I don't want more to do :)
* Private message me ONLY IF WE KNOW EACH OTHER OFFLINE

Please do NOT:
* Private message me UNLESS WE KNOW EACH OTHER OFFLINE
* Recommend any books, audios or other media, churches, ministers, groups or websites of a religious nature. As my journey continues I will attract what's best for me "by my works," ha!!!
* Be snarky or "challenging." I am not interested in debating.

I am grateful to know some pretty bad-ass Christ-followers in my life. I will be reaching out to some of you soon, if I remain on this path of questioning, resisting, and accepting. Thank you again!

For Success & Happiness Be Tolerant of Others (Napoleon Hill quote)

Until you have learned to be tolerant with those who do not always agree with you; until you have cultivated the habit of saying some kind word of those whom you do not admire; until you have formed the habit of looking for the good instead of the bad there is in others, you will be neither successful nor happy.    
         --Napoleon Hill 


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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Disappointments as Blessings: William Gaines Poem

Most of my major disappointments 
have turned out to be blessings in disguise.
So whenever anything bad does happen to me,
I kind of sit back and feel, well,
if I give this enough time,
it'll turn out that this was good,
so I shan't worry about it too much.
  -William Gaines



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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


It's Ok To Be Needy!

It's ok to be needy. When you don't need to be needy anymore you'll stop being needy! 

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Please Respect My Inspirational Writing

Just a wee rant, my friends. Take it with the block of salt that my many moods warrant!
This began as a tiny little comment on social media but then it just growed and growed!

If you want to get blocked, leave a snide or sarcastic comment on one of my inspirational posts. I am serious about my work, and I can't stand snark. It isn't playful to me. It offends, hurts my feelings, makes light of (and has the direct opposite effect of when people thank me for) my efforts. Please take that "playfulness" elsewhere.
Yesterday I posted "When in doubt, be grateful." Someone responded, "When in doubt, doubt."
Is that funny? Then post your humor on YOUR timeline. I am not here to provide a forum for anyone's comedy.
Do you want to show how clever you are? Please use your timeline for that.
Remember, the renaissance negresse has the bipolar disorders. At any time she could be in a highly irritable mood and have zero-zip-zippety tolerance for disrespectful nonsense.
Don't you know it takes effort to be bright and shiny in a dark and gloomy world? To bring the light out every single day, to share it with others every day in hopes of reaching one persun who will feel a little less down, a little more hopeful, and give us ALL a little more strength.
I am here to help us remember the positive side of the world, the good stuff the light and the love in it.
I am here to help us all continue living well, getting on with our day and our joys and our meaningful workery-type activitations.
I LOVE what I do, I've been doing this since the early 90s and I'm not about to quit anytime soon.
Most of the time I hear nothing about it. I just do it because I must, because it's my own medicine, in addition to being my gift to the world. I am aware that the motivation to be an inspirational writer is God's gift to me, so I feel compelled to celebrate and show appreciation and respect for that gift.
That means that I write inspiration as often as I can (Daily or even hourly posts on the Facebooks and the Twitters, my blogs, and my YouTube channel), and by any means necessary (webzines I have written for include Wisdom Magazine and InnerSelf Magazine), and even self-made zines and chapbooks printed at office supply stores.
I do this because inspirational writing is my passion.
I do receive some "likes", and once in a while I receive positive feedback, a nice email, a comment on one of my posts. These go very far with, and are greatly appreciated by me.
But for the most part I write and don't hear back, and that is fine with me because I am not doing this for applause or praise, any more than a physician or minister does her work for applause or praise.
When I receive a snarky comment, if I know the persun and have otherwise positive experiences with them, I'll just delete the comment.
But if it's a stranger, I make 'em go bye-bye with the block or unfriend button, depending on level of snarkery (aka "snarkation").
I don't usually do rants but I felt compelled to do this one, and I believe there is room in the world for righteous anger, such as when Christ expressed his less than cheerful feelings about the money changers in the house of the Lord.
Anyway, please don't show me the snark. Snark is the opposite of angels. The opposite of inspiration. The opposite of what makes the renaissance negresse happy. Not sure how to respond to my posts?
When in doubt, be silent.
Or rather, be grateful!

Thanks for letting me share!

Lovingly,

Cassendre

Sunday, October 8, 2017

New Inspiration Line Message!

New message on my Free, 24-hour Inspiration Line! "When In Doubt, Be Grateful" & "Doing Bipolar Friendship" 215-552-8850

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

A memory from the Black Women's Arts Festival 2017

LaTierra S. Piphus shares at the 11th Black Women's Arts Festival's "Ceremony to Honor Our Ancestors and Elders." Sunday, October 1, 2017, at The Rotunda, 4014 Walnut St, Philadelphia, PA 19104.
(Video link: https://youtu.be/AbCtAxCaR_E)

LaTierra is creator and co-organizer of the Womanist Working Collective http://WomanistWorkingCollective.org

For more about the Black Women's Arts Festival, please visit http://facebook.com/BWAFfanpage

Tags: Multi, cultural, creativity, community, award, winning, Leeway, Foundation, recipient, woman, feminist, event

Monday, October 2, 2017

Difficulty adds beauty to life!

Life is gorgeous because it has contrast. We would not love it if it were plainly pretty. That would be too flat. So why not appreciate the difficult for what it is - it adds beauty.

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


You are in the right place in life

If you trust and believe that you are in the right place right now in your life, and you accept where and who you are with love, acceptance, and patience, taking the next steps in your life will be easier and filled with more joy and light.

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Saturday, September 30, 2017

You wanted free will

Your soul wanted free will so much it agreed to the harshness of earth in exchange for the privilege. Use it!

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Friday, September 29, 2017

Let Someone Love You by Marc Hack

"Let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room." — Marc Hack

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Survivor's Corner: Invisible Woundedness

SURVIVOR'S CORNER: Those we draw to us don't see our woundedness, or they love us anyway.

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Survivor's Corner: Able to Love

Don't think about the ways you blocked or may have missed love; appreciate that you were able to love at all.

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Festival update and Open Stage announcement!

Dear Friends!

Some featured artists of the Black Women's Arts Festival! Kai Moon Oceans! Amor La Luna! Dr. Sunlight Little! Krista Nelson! Ashanti Oats! Tamara Xavier! Cassendre Xavier! Atiya Ola's Cafe! Sat-Sun, Sept. 30-Oct. 1, 1pm-9pm, The Rotunda, 4014 Walnut St, Phila PA 19104 Free and All respectful persuns are welcome! Lots of TBA stage space - come by and share!

Would you like to perform or share at the Festival? We still have lots of space for films, comedy, dance, music, poetry, you name it!
 
 Open Stage is from 5pm-8:30pm - Come on by!
 
 If you email us your pic, 200 maximum word bio plus website/blog etc. link, we will promote it as part of the Festival!

  Send to this address, or email it to cxmusic(at)gmail.com!

Cassendre Xavier
Founder/Artist/Organizer
11th Black Women's Arts Festival
https://www.facebook.com/BWAFfanpage/

http://cassendrexavier.wordpress.com



Reincarnation Blues

I try and try 
to tell my heart
and other body parts
that every man
who looks like a Scottish 
character in Braveheart 
isn't my husband 
but they never listen




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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Thursday, September 14, 2017

Nothing is so bad...

Nothing is so bad that you can't find something to feel good about before you get out of bed in the morning.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

How to make people change

The only way to make people change is to not need them to. The only way someone else can change is when you do. (We are All One!)

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


What the angels want you to know today 9/13/17

Self-Love & A Lot of Toilet Paper

(Scroll down to the end for Angel Messages!)

I had a lovely breakthrough this morning; one that showed my progress in doing my self-love work and raising my self-esteem, as would be beneficial if most of not all people did (and how's that for a run-on sentence!).
Just before I rinsed my face I noticed the rolls of bathroom tissue and thought, "I use a lot of toilet paper." Then I started feeling ashamed that my nesting partner and his 22-year-old daughter may have noticed. Then, I thought, that in addition to my embarrassing excessive bathroom habits (if it isn't the frequent urination of one VERY sexy health issue (sleep apnea) or another (diuretic effects of the lithium orotate supplement I take for bipolar disorder and PTSD), "I also eat a lot," and I felt embarrassed for being SUCH a raging overeater right now. But then I went into my angel-inspired self-love thoughts, which I've learned to use like a warrior puts on her shields and armor. (You really have to be vigilant about self-love work sometimes, and one of the many rewards is that it really works. The affirmations do sink in at some point, and even when or if you're feeling embarrassed for doing the exercises, you do start to believe them. And it's so important to do them because the negative messages we gave ourselves our whole lives or saw on TV or read in magazines, all geared towards making is feel we need to buy things, well we believed or still believe those messages, too. A lot of them sunk in and need to be unwritten and removed from our psyches. Totally neutralized.
I know now that my affirmations, sometimes said in front of the mirror, sometimes while smiling, sometimes while hugging myself, have been working. I know this because I thought, "Well, I also clean a lot. And I also love a lot."
And it's true. The house and household has transformed since I started staying here in February. It's always clean, neat, and tidy, and it is also emotionally much more peaceful. Even the cats get more attention now because of my presence, attention from everyone.
So, who cares if I use a lot of toilet paper. The bathroom gleams now, the extra expense is a non-issue for my nesting partner, and I also sometimes supplement with buying my own.
And I won't keep feeding the negative thoughts that plague my brain about my eating disorder. It flares up when I am stressed and this close to my September 30 deadline of [my annual event][https://m.facebook.com/BWAFfanpage/], I am surely that!
I am also proud of my regular habit of calling on the angels for guidance and emotional support.

What we tell ourselves sticks. And then it grows. I'm glad that with all the feeding of foodstuffs into my face-hole, I am also feeding my emotional self and inner child with healthy nutritious thoughts, too!

If you struggle with eating, food, and/or body image/weight issues, be it on either side of the scale, remember to treat yourself with compassion, that your behavior is affected by life events, and that you have a condition that's very difficult to treat.
Realize that you may have this issue for your whole life, and determine and commit to at the very least be good to yourself in thought, even if you can't always do so in action.
Know and tell yourself that you are loved, lovable, and worthy of having anything you want (if it's meant for you to have it) regardless of your weight or appearance. That includes sex and romance if you're into that kind of thing, and not everybody is!
Remember, this too shall pass, as do most things in life, pleasant or unpleasant, except for love,which you can always feed yourself!
Try always to see yourself through the eyes of Spirit, as the angels only ever see us as pure love.

Side note: I learned recently that low self-esteem comes often with bipolar disorder. Something about the depressive states. I tell ya, between the child abuse experience and ravages to self-esteem that being a compulsive overeater does, I'm getting tired of counting "things that make me have low self-esteem and what I have to do to counteract them!"

I think that's one of the reasons I write a lot of this kind of thing: Because I do have these issues and writing and talking about what I do to counteract them really helps, especially when I hear from my readers that it is making a difference!

Thank you for your time.


Merry today!

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Angel Messages for 9/13/17

It is hard for you to comprehend how much we love you and how absolutely and without question loved you are.
This is because of the harsh earth plane you are on, and the density of your physical vessel.
You think and behave as if you are far away from us and that we are weak fluttering wings of butterfly you may never acknowledge.
But we are a force, a mighty force of good, created by the most high, to be of service to you. That's how loved you are.
We invite you to make use of our immense power.
And we would like you to remember that we and those others in spirit are not the only ones who love you. Open your eyes and accept this love from many sources and directions.
You are worthy.
Recommendation: Quiet contemplation of angels. Angel meditation. Angel books and audios. <3
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Cassendre Xavier
Artist, Organizer, Angel Reader
http://cassendrexavier.wordpress.com