(musician/writer/actress/visual artist) aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls, aka Endowed Goddess
Sunday, March 27, 2016
Goddess Sundays: Trees as Portals & Proof
Goddess Sundays: Sensing Goddess Within
GODDESS SUNDAYS (where every week we explore feminine aspects of the divine): I believe if we stop running around for five seconds, and tune into our Inner Wise Self, almost everyone will sense Goddess within.
- [http://cassEndrExavier.com] (aka Endowed Goddess (porny), aka Amrita Waterfalls (sexual), aka Amethyste Rah (spiritual)]
Goddess Sundays: Is Goddess Real?
GODDESS SUNDAYS (where every week we explore feminine aspects of the divine): I will not say, "Goddess is real." I do invite you to quietly search your heart, mind, and soul for Her Presence.
- [http://cassEndrExavier.com] (aka Endowed Goddess (porny), aka Amrita Waterfalls (sexual), aka Amethyste Rah (spiritual)]
Have you visited my Bandcamp page?
Dear Friendular Type Units!
As it may have been drummed and harped into ya by now :) all of my musical CDs are available for review and sale-ation at CD Baby. However, I also have them at Bandcamp, where you can hear all the tracks of the albums posted there, plus do the same of my spoken word guided meditations Affirmations for Survivors: Self-Love, and Affirmations for Survivors: Spirituality (released in 2007 under my self-assigned spiritual name of Amethyste Rah).
I would LOVE for you to explore this storefront, and really get your CX groove on there! Sure, they're available for purchase there as well, but my real bread and butter of online digital music download sales seems to be coming from The Spotifies (www.spotify.com) so iffn' you happen to have an account there, do search my name (properly spelled with two E's not just one, please :) ) and support my art/work, and therefore, life.
You know I appreciate you, because everything I do shows it!
Much love to you on this sunny Easter Sunday,
Cassendre Xavier
(aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls, aka Endowed Goddess)
renaissance negresse
(Award-winning multi-media healing artist & Community cultural arts organizer)
Goddess Sundays: No Conversion, Only Expansion
Goddess Sundays: Misogynous Much?
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Law of Attraction: Singation (without Representation)
Friday, March 18, 2016
3rd Anniversary of My Partner’s Passing
Today is the third anniversary of my partner Tom's passing. We were together for 4 years, which for someone like me and for someone like him (we were not easy people :), was quite a feat.
I don't have much more to say about this right now. I don't have a lot of energy to talk about it.
I express my feelings creatively, and for now I can share this with you:
My Wisdom Magazine article Love Never Dies: Afterlife Communication with Deceased Loved Ones
http://wisdom-magazine.com/Article.aspx/3115/
Thanks,
Cassendre
Tags: death, grief, grieving, spouse, loss, sympathy, condolences
How to Not Commit Suicide (Bipolar Chronicles)
[Disclaimer: I am not at all suicidal. Just a little depressed and a lot committed to wording things exactly the way I want to be worded. And that's what this piece wanted to be called.]
How to Not Commit Suicide (Bipolar Chronicles)
by Cassendre Xavier
Don't even entertain the thought
There are lots of other things to think about
Write songs like "Happy to be Alive"
Do things that make you happy
Make love with friends and lovers
Be highly creative
Get postcards like this one:
"15 March 2016
My dear, precious friend,
I am listening right now to your beautiful music on CD Baby and Bandcamp.
You are a true community heroine, a shining star, and a beautiful example of a life full of sharing your creative gift with the world.
Your friend,
(confidential)."
-Cassendre
Thursday, March 17, 2016
Tin Angel show Canceled!
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Tuesday, March 15, 2016
I Just Updated the Erotica Page of My Website!
Monday, March 14, 2016
Dear Chest, Stomach, and Heart: I’m Sorry
by Cassendre Xavier
Dear chest, stomach, and heart
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I don't have control of my eating
And I'm hurt you so much over the last few days
Even though I know I ought not
I ate heavy, fatty foods I knew would strain you
And hurt you
And make you cry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I cannot control my eating
And that I have not been able to since I was a child
I know that I have been this way since I was very small
And 27 years of twelve-step "programming" didn't help, either
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I cannot control my eating
As I type at this computer
Completely bent over from the pain
In my chest, stomach and heart
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I ate not one but two large
Chocolate bars today
And no fruit whatsoever
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I drank a fraction of the amount
Of water I ought to drink every day
Especially given my size, my weight
And the prescription drugs I'm putting you through
Will you forgive me?
Can you forgive me?
The angels tell you me you already have
And that, being Nature, you cannot help
But to do your job
You work for me
You work for god
You work for Goddess who leads him
I thank you, chest
I thank you, stomach,
And I thank you, heart
For being with me and working for us
Each day, whether I am giving you much to work with
Or not
Whether I am going easy on you
Or not
I thank you, chest
I thank you, stomach,
And I thank you, heart
I continue to try
And pray to do better
The angels tell me to recognize my progress
Not be hard on myself
And focus on things getting better for me in all ways
Including my gentle treatment of you
And all who work for me
I now focus on the gentle treatment of myself
And I recognize my progress:
Other than when I go "off the wagon" I eat more healthfully
Every year that passes
It is my progress that makes me notice
When I've done badly
It is my progress that has raised my standards for myself
It is my progress that allows me to write this blog
Because I know I am healing
I know I'm getting better, even though I still do things
That make me want and need to say
I'm sorry.
[Image: Cassendre Xavier teaching yoga with a beard at the 9th Black Women's Arts Festival - BWAF Philly 2015, at The Rotunda. Credit: Gina Renzi.]
© 2016 Copyright by Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls). All rights reserved. Permission is granted to share this ethically as long as the previous credit and following link are included: http://http://cassendrexavier.com
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NEXT CONCERT:
Wed March 23rd, 7:30pm doors/8:00pm show. Live music concert at www.TinAngel.com with the wonderful www.RupertWatesMusic.com. He's from England!
More trivia: I sang his song "Snow in New York" on his album Joe's Cafe, and you can watch me singing it live at the Metropolitan Room in Manhattan here!
Tix: $12
Adults 21+ Only
Tin Angel
20 S. 2nd St
Philadelphia, PA 19107
SHORTCUT LINK TO BUY MANY, MANY, AND I MEAN, LIKE, RIDUNKULOUS AMOUNTS OF TICKETS! http://www.ticketfly.com/event/1070809-rupert-wates-philadelphia/
On the Rag Again - Willie Nelson Parody (with Lyrics)
Cassendre Xavier
(aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls)
"renaissance negresse & ARTrepreneur"
(musician/writer/actress/fine artist)
$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning founder & executive director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003 http://BWAFphilly.org) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002 http://WomensWritingSeries.org).
Musical & guided meditation albums and tracks:
https://cassendrexavier.bandcamp.com
At CD Baby: http://cdbaby.com/all/cassendre
At iTunes: http://apple.co/1K7zV5g
On Amazon: http://amzn.to/1xrklOW
Blog: http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com
Writing: Wisdom Magazine: http://wisdom-magazine.com/ArticleArchives.aspx?isLike=true&author=cassendre%20xavier and more: http://bit.ly/1LjFjnR
Erotica: http://amritawaterfalls.blogspot.com/2016/02/with-pleasure-finallyout-of-erotic.html Official website: http://cassendrexavier.com
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Beautiful and Refined
- It confirmed for me not only my intention and efforts to sound this way, but that I'm actually being effective.
- It reminded me of something I saw on Inside the Actor's Studio: Robert De Niro. In the final five questions, when asked, "What turns you on?" At least I think that was the question, his answer was, "Refinement." I love that soooo much, not only because he's known as a master of his craft, and grew up with two artist parents who probably were the first to instill in him the concept, value, and goal of refinement, but also for the fact that he has a strong predilection for and attraction to my melanin-enriched sort of womon! I'm not saying one is not "refined" unless one has a certain level of darkness of skin - of course that wouldn't be a good thing to say, but since the mind has so many places to go that are perfectly permissible, I have still always had the story in my mind, because it pleases me to do so, that black women are the most refined one can find. And I assure you that if I were a red-haired Celtic lass, that is exactly the same I'd say about myself and my own kind!
Thursday, March 10, 2016
The Gastritis Got Me! (Or: How I Got Over My Fear of Pharmaceutical Drugs)
- You don't have to be afraid of pharmaceutical drugs. Sure, the industry's got a lot of evil and corruptation in it, but medicines have helped many people live longer and healthier lives, too. What convinced me to finally try hypertension meds again was that one of my mental health providers told me that with medication his blood pressure now is "perfect". I like the idea of doing that myself, and to stop straining my system by ignoring the problem. I used to think I could use just health food and raw veganism to cure every major health problem in my life, the main ones being my bipolar disorder and hypertension. But it takes certain resources, not only money and a place to have your juicer and blender and stuff, but these resources must be consistent, for many years, to make a positive and lasting effect on your health. If you're like me, and you're not able to guarantee that, consider medication until you are.
- It doesn't have to be forever. You can take medications temporarily, and stop when you've created other systems to maintain your wellness.
- It doesn't have be your sole source of wellness. The best plan is one that includes other things with whatever you're doing: Exercise, time with loved ones, creative outlets, prayer and meditation, etc. Medication is not a magic pill, any more than raw veganism or uber healthfood lifestyle alone the cure all.
- You can always detox later. Drugs do have toxins, but focusing on that delays your success in treating other life-threatening issues. Put out the big fires first, by any means blah blah blah.
- Taking medication is a sign of increased self-care. Being diligent about taking it every day, and roughly the same time every day, the way you're instructed to, be it with food, or before bed or whatever, and doing the other things you need to do to ensure that it has the best chance of working, such as not using alcohol or consume anything that will weaken or negatively interact with it - all this is called being in compliance. Being in compliance with your treatment says "I love myself" and that you matter. The universe says Yes! and sends other experiences to affirm that belief.