Tuesday, December 31, 2013

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Happy New Year!

Greetings, Friends,

I just wanted to take a moment to wish you a wonderful 2014.
May this new year bring you all the wonderful things your heart desires, surpassing all your expectations. This, or something better, and may it be for the good of all!

Remember to b-r-e-a-t-h-e, and that one of the most powerful medicines is laughter :-)



Warmly,
Cassendre
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Greetings, Friends,

I just wanted to take a moment to wish you a wonderful 2014.
May this new year bring you all the wonderful things your heart desires, surpassing all your expectations. This, or something better, and may it be for the good of all!

Remember to b-r-e-a-t-h-e, and that one of the most powerful medicines is laughter :-)



Warmly,
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Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Honor the Creator by Being Yourself

When you insist on and continue being who and what you and were created to be, you give honor, trust, and gratitude to your Creator, you are given all available power to flourish, and you inspire and bless others to do be themselves also. <3

 

Please enjoy my original song "Beautiful" (scroll down for lyrics) from my CD/MP3 Live at Tin Angel on YouTube http://youtu.be/A7eHvWqhKEo and available from iTunes at http://tinyurl.com/CXiTunes and as CD only at http://cdbaby.com/all/cassendre!

 

LYRICS:

I know that we're just barely floating/now look what we've done to this thing/we used to have something truly beautiful/now what do we say to our friends/who swore that we would never last/we told them that we had something beautiful/and now we are done, we are over/but heaven will always shine through/and give us each both something beautiful/om-weh (oh my)/u-me'm (how you)/touche'm (touch me)/dousement (so sweetly so gently)/om-weh (oh my)/u-me'm (how you)/kenbe'm (hold me)/dousement (so sweetly so gently)

 

- "Beautiful" – song lyrics in English (and Haitian Kreyol), music, vocals and guitar by Cassendre Xavier.

 

 

© (p) 2006 Cassendre Xavier Music (ASCAP). All rights reserved. (Never let it be said!)

Friday, December 20, 2013

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Happy Holidays! Care Packages for All!

Dear Friends!

I sure hope youre getting geared up for the happiest, safest, warmest winter holiday season youve ever had, ever! EVER!

I am writing because the angels (or for those of you who get freaked out by that language: my inner wisdom :-) ) are *strongly* urging me to write to you NOW with my mailing address. Actually, at first I thought they were telling me to send you my address, because that was the original idea, because in just in the past two days Ive received two requests for my address so that these lovely people could send me a care package.
So, even though its late and Im tired because Ive been working on my websites and doing e-correspondence for the last many hours and I really want to lie down finally and watch all the Laws and the Orders or anything on the Investigation Discovery (ID) or Hallmark channels I can get my eyeballs set on, it occurs to me now that Im writing all this malarkey, tomfoolery, and shenanegans, that I was supposed to write to send you some holiday cheer and that its not about the address at all!

But so I dont forget and send this thing without it, heres my public mailing address (if you emailed me privately and received a different one, dont worry, that was correct. Its just a private address, and actually a better one.) Ideally, if youd like to send me some mail or a care package as my friend and then a CX/renaissance negresse appreciator said, please email or reply to me here and Ill send you my super accurate where Ill be during the holidays for sure address. That theres the private one. But iffn ya aint got that kinda time, my public one where I gets muh mailing type devices is:

Cassendre Xavier
4530 Baltimore Ave
Philadelphia, PA 19143


You know how I like to share fan mail. Heres the latest and why Im writin to ya now:

Hi Cassendre, this is S. I heard you sing at Crossroads in Roxborough, bought your CD and signed up for your mailing list at that time. I used to see you there amongst the crowd more frequently, but haven't seen you there since your performance. Anyway, lately I've found myself thinking about the words that you share in your communications and trying to apply the meaning I think I'm getting from your words to my everyday life situations. Thanks for sharing! I remember reading once you gave your mailing address or snail mail as you called it, and I was wondering, would be alright to send you a holiday "care package"? Nothing spectacular, I just wanted to spread some good cheer. I'm using my cell phone, so please pardon the spacing/formatting. Hope to hear from you soon. Respectfully, S.


Im not able to send you all physical care packages but I hope you can sense that I try to do this virtually via the internet ethers whenever possible!

You know I write for Wisdom Magazine at http://tinyurl.com/CXWisdom
You know I sing, inspire, entertain, and inform on YouTube at http://tinyurl.com/CXYouTube
You know I make the musics (plural) at CD Baby http://cdbaby.com/all/cdbaby or http://tinyurl.com/CXCDBaby. 6 albums are there, and 2 are at ye olde iTunes at http://tinyurl.com/CXiTunes.
But I suppose the most action in the love-givery Im engaged in these days directified at thyselves are on the Facebooks at http://facebook.com/cassendrexavier and the Blogger at http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com. Much moreso the former as I post quite lots-ly upon the Facebooks.

I truly hope you can tell in my writerly actions that I intend to entertain and offer comfort and some sort of upliftment in your path of life-livingness. :-)

This is the care package I have for you, and I hope you can feel my love. When I said that I was reminded of the song Feel My Heat from the movie Boogie Nights. Do you remember that? It was brilliant! http://youtu.be/SYzB_QqxXu4.

Well, time to head on outta here for now, folkseses. I shall leave you with a little thing I like to call, One Kwanzaa Cake Recipe You Cannot Be Without, brought to you by a little domestical dame I like to call the culinary Barbie: Sandra Lee! The recipe is super simple! http://youtu.be/we2iWTJqo98.

And if youre love the Barefood Contessa (Ina Garten) as much as I do, check out this wacky parody, described as Ina makes salted sausage from animals in the backyard of her neighbors, and a deliciously moist dessert made with lots of good flour. She invites her friend Demetrius Remington Felicity-Smith over to share dinner and dessert. It was SO... delicious. http://youtu.be/sY-abOKMqTY.


I hope this adds some cheer to thyselves, my precious bunnies. And dont forget, in the big sphere of this life thing, you are MUY MAJESTIQUE!!!!


Berry Berry!
Cassendre
Shes Getting There
http://cassendrexavier.com (new website coming soon!)


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Happy Holidays! Care Packages for All!

Dear Friends!

 

I sure hope you're getting geared up for the happiest, safest, warmest winter holiday season you've ever had, ever! EVER!

 

I am writing because the angels (or for those of you who get freaked out by that language: "my inner wisdom" :-) ) are *strongly* urging me to write to you NOW with my mailing address. Actually, at first I thought they were telling me to send you my address, because that was the original idea, because in just in the past two days I've received two requests for my address so that these lovely people could send me a "care package".

 So, even though it's late and I'm tired because I've been working on my websites and doing e-correspondence for the last many hours and I really want to lie down finally and watch all the Laws and the Orders or anything on the Investigation Discovery (ID) or Hallmark channels I can get my eyeballs set on, it occurs to me now that I'm writing all this malarkey, tomfoolery, and shenanegans, that I was supposed to write to send you some holiday cheer and that it's not about the address at all!

 

But so I don't forget and send this thing without it, here's my public mailing address (if you emailed me privately and received a different one, don't worry, that was correct. It's just a private address, and actually a better one.) Ideally, if you'd like to send me some mail or a "care package" as my friend and then a CX/renaissance negresse appreciator said, please email or reply to me here and I'll send you my super accurate where I'll be during the holidays for sure address. That there's the private one. But iffn' ya ain't got that kinda time, my public one where I gets muh mailing type devices is:

 

Cassendre Xavier

4530 Baltimore Ave

Philadelphia, PA 19143

 

 

You know how I like to share fan mail. Here's the latest and why I'm writin' to ya now:

 

Hi Cassendre, this is S. I heard you sing at Crossroads in Roxborough, bought your CD and signed up for your mailing list at that time. I used to see you there amongst the crowd more frequently, but haven't seen you there since your performance.  Anyway, lately I've found myself thinking about the words that you share in your communications and trying to apply the meaning I think I'm getting from your words to my everyday life situations. Thanks for sharing! I remember reading once you gave your mailing address or snail mail as you called it, and I was wondering, would be alright to send you a holiday "care package"? Nothing spectacular, I just wanted to spread some good cheer. I'm using my cell phone, so please pardon the spacing/formatting. Hope to hear from you soon. Respectfully,  S.

 

 

I'm not able to send you all physical "care packages" but I hope you can sense that I try to do this virtually via the internet ethers whenever possible!

 

You know I write for Wisdom Magazine at http://tinyurl.com/CXWisdom

You know I sing, inspire, entertain, and inform on YouTube at http://tinyurl.com/CXYouTube

You know I make the musics (plural) at CD Baby http://cdbaby.com/all/cdbaby or http://tinyurl.com/CXCDBaby. 6 albums are there, and 2 are at ye olde iTunes at http://tinyurl.com/CXiTunes.

But I suppose the most "action" in the love-givery I'm engaged in these days directified at thyselves are on the Facebooks at http://facebook.com/cassendrexavier and the Blogger at http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com. Much moreso the former as I post quite lots-ly upon the Facebooks.

 

I truly hope you can tell in my writerly actions that I intend to entertain and offer comfort and some sort of upliftment in your path of life-livingness. :-)

 

This is the care package I have for you, and I hope you can feel my love. When I said that I was reminded of the song "Feel My Heat" from the movie Boogie Nights. Do you remember that? It was brilliant! http://youtu.be/SYzB_QqxXu4.

 

Well, time to head on outta here for now, folkseses. I shall leave you with a little thing I like to call, "One Kwanzaa Cake Recipe You Cannot Be Without", brought to you by a little domestical dame I like to call the culinary Barbie: Sandra Lee! The recipe is "super simple! http://youtu.be/we2iWTJqo98.

 

And if you're love the Barefood Contessa (Ina Garten) as much as I do, check out this wacky parody, described as "Ina makes salted sausage from animals in the backyard of her neighbors, and a deliciously moist dessert made with lots of good flour. She invites her friend Demetrius Remington Felicity-Smith over to share dinner and dessert. It was SO... delicious." http://youtu.be/sY-abOKMqTY.

 

 

I hope this adds some cheer to thyselves, my precious bunnies. And don't forget, in the big sphere of this life thing, you are MUY MAJESTIQUE!!!!

 

 

Berry Berry

Cassendre

She's Getting There

http://cassendrexavier.com (new website coming soon!)

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

What Will You Want When You Have "Everything"?

I was watching a commercial about these two wimmin who have a show called "Toned Up." Right before the commercial ended, I looked at their hip bones and found myself having the usual thoughts of envy, shame, and sadness, and then hope and faith that "someday" I'll be that fit, etc…. I wondered if they were totally happy, and of course I knew they probably weren't perfectly so, and I thought about myself and how I would feel once I got that type of body. "And then what?" I wondered. What would I want for once I got the so-called perfect body? Years ago I didn't know this, but I'm so glad I know now that things like having a great body or lots of money alone won't make me happy. Even though being fit and eating well does make us feel good, it's not enough.

 Life is not about our money, our looks, or even our joyful work. It's about love, whatever that means for us. From what I've learned, it seems what people smile about when they're on their death beds is the love they have received when they were alive. And most of the time, it's the love we give that attracts the love we receive, starting with self-love.

 So, hip bones, or no hip bones, lots of money or not lots of money, credible work or no credible work, as long as I have true love for myself first, then give lots of love to others, and receive love from them, I'll be just fine. :-) <3

 

Cassendre

www.cassendrexavier.com



Tuesday, December 17, 2013

One Step Closer to Raw Food Lifestyle for Overall Health

Dear Friends,


In July I started taking a medication for my bipolar that as it turns out does NOTHING to prevent depression. But, as I learned an hour ago, it DOES give you a voracious appetite and significant weight gain. So, from my bed, and 15 lbs heavier, I say Thank You, Doctors! Thank you, especially for looking out for my high blood pressure. But at least I got the lovely sexual dysfunction side effect of the drug! Nothing says "Get through depression" like "numb 'nads"! –Signed, Your Seriously Sarcastic Subject



-Cassendre Xavier

www.cassendrexavier.com

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Fire - Bruce Springsteen cover by Cassendre Xavier

Dear Friends,

Please enjoy my cover of Bruce Springsteen's song "Fire" here 'pon the YouTubes!
Have all the fun,

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Meanwhile, back at the ranch, the renaissance does what she can with what she has.. and right now that is writing from bed! Please enjoy!

The Universe Doesnt Support Idleness: Every Part of Us is Supposed to Work

by Cassendre Xavier

I was thinking the other day about how the universe works. How life makes it so that we must move and work in order to remain healthy and sane.
It helps to not be so afraid of lifes changes and challenges when we realize it just is this way, and its actually intended to help us grow stronger. The universe wants to experience itself through us and that cant happen if we are allowed to remain at rest for long periods of time unless we absolutely need that rest. And even if one part of us needs that rest, there are many other parts of us that can, and probably ought to, remain as active as, if not more active than, before.
In case, hypothetically speaking, there is a persun who has recently had a major trauma in her life, and has taken to bed for a few weeks, and hypothetically also has a mental illness and is also unemployed and staying with folks because she doesnt have her own place right now. Hypothetically speaking, she isnt using her body very much, but she could do more. Hypothetically speaking such a persun whose mind still works well enough to write could hypothetically write blogs and make YouTube videos and spend time meditating and visualizing what the next wonderful chapter of her life will be or look like. Hypothetically speaking. Yes, that could happen.

What made me think of this the other day was I was eating very lightly steamed kale, and enjoying the chewiness of it. I was remembering my friend Arnold telling me when I was on a green smoothie feast that I was enjoying it so much and wishing I could avoid chewing food altogether. He said our teeth still need to work, so if I ever wanted to do a liquid diet to eat a carrot every now and then, to keep my chewing up. I also remembered prominent raw educator/entrepreneur David Wolfe saying that our stomachs need to work on what we eat, and this is why people end up with diseases like diverticulitus and colon cancer, because the food we were eating was too soft and didnt require much hard chewing. Our stomachs have to work to be healthy.

I thought about how our hearts have to work in order for us to be healthy. Not only are we supposed to be loving and forgive or we suffer the consequences of fractured relationships and poor mental health, but we are supposed do physical exercise to keep the muscle of our heart strong. We cant just lie about and not expect there to be repercussions.

Muscles in general must be used, or they will atrophy. Its not enough to just be happy to have them. We must use them.

No matter who we are or how much abundance we have in life, we still remain challenged by life. That never, ever stops. To remind myself of this, I like to look to very rich, successful, and ever productive individuals including Oprah Winfrey and Bill Gates as examples. Neither are resting on their laurels, and at least in Oprahs case Im sure all her spiritual study and practice has affirmed for her that not only is she expected to work, but that she has been abundantly blessed precisely to continue to do even more and more work to achieve and maintain her calling.

The universe is designed to make us work. This is why its so important to make sure our work is joyful, because were going to have to do it anyway, if we want to be happy, healthy, and sane(ish)!

It has helped me to realize this, because when life becomes challenging, I can look around and see all the ways and reasons it was designed to be so, and this can make the challenge much easier to bear and work through.

And, I also find it beautiful proof that the universe itself never stops moving. Even in its apparent still moments, it creates. It moves. It works. It does its own joyful work, as all parts of each one of us is meant to.

Enjoy your movements, heh-heh!


I hope this helps you!

Sincerely,

Cassendre



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The Universe Doesn't Support Idleness: Every Part of Us is Supposed to Work

 

by Cassendre Xavier

 

I was thinking the other day about how the universe works. How life makes it so that we must move and work in order to remain healthy and sane.

 It helps to not be so afraid of life's changes and challenges when we realize it just is this way, and it's actually intended to help us grow stronger. The universe wants to experience itself through us and that can't happen if we are allowed to remain at rest for long periods of time unless we absolutely need that rest. And even if one part of us needs that rest, there are many other parts of us that can, and probably ought to, remain as active as, if not more active than, before.

 In case, hypothetically speaking, there is a persun who has recently had a major trauma in her life, and has taken to bed for a few weeks, and hypothetically also has a mental illness and is also unemployed and staying with folks because she doesn't have her own place right now. Hypothetically speaking, she isn't using her body very much, but she could do more. Hypothetically speaking such a persun whose mind still works well enough to write could hypothetically write blogs and make YouTube videos and spend time meditating and visualizing what the next wonderful chapter of her life will be or look like. Hypothetically speaking. Yes, that could happen.

 

What made me think of this the other day was I was eating very lightly steamed kale, and enjoying the chewiness of it. I was remembering my friend Arnold telling me when I was on a green smoothie feast that I was enjoying it so much and wishing I could avoid chewing food altogether. He said our teeth still need to work, so if I ever wanted to do a liquid diet to eat a carrot every now and then, to keep my chewing up. I also remembered prominent raw educator/entrepreneur David Wolfe saying that our stomachs need to work on what we eat, and this is why people end up with diseases like diverticulitus and colon cancer,  because the food we were eating was too soft and didn't require much hard chewing. Our stomachs have to work to be healthy.

 

I thought about how our hearts have to work in order for us to be healthy. Not only are we supposed to be loving and forgive or we suffer the consequences of fractured relationships and poor mental health, but we are supposed do physical exercise to keep the muscle of our heart strong. We can't just lie about and not expect there to be repercussions.

 

Muscles in general must be used, or they will atrophy. It's not enough to just be happy to have them. We must use them.

 

No matter who we are or how much abundance we have in life, we still remain challenged by life. That never, ever stops. To remind myself of this, I like to look to very rich, successful, and ever productive individuals including Oprah Winfrey and Bill Gates as examples. Neither are resting on their laurels, and at least in Oprah's case I'm sure all her spiritual study and practice has affirmed for her that not only is she expected to work, but that she has been abundantly blessed precisely to continue to do even more and more work to achieve and maintain her calling.

 

The universe is designed to make us work. This is why it's so important to make sure our work is joyful, because we're going to have to do it anyway, if we want to be happy, healthy, and sane(ish)!

 

It has helped me to realize this, because when life becomes challenging, I can look around and see all the ways and reasons it was designed to be so, and this can make the challenge much easier to bear and work through.

 

And, I also find it beautiful proof that the universe itself never stops moving. Even in its apparent still moments, it creates. It moves. It works. It does its own joyful work, as all parts of each one of us is meant to.

 

Enjoy your movements, heh-heh!

 

 

I hope this helps you!

 

Sincerely,

 

Cassendre

 

 

 

© 2013 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. www.cassEndrExavier.com

 

 

 

 

Friday, December 13, 2013

Diary of a renaissance negresse Dec 14, 2013

Diary of a renaissance negresse

                                                                                                       

 

Friday, December 14, 2013

 

by Cassendre Xavier

 

 

Whether in thoughts or in action, never underestimate the power of baby steps.

 

 

TABLE OF CONTENTS

 

A) GREETING

1) WHO IS THE RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE?

2) GOFUNDME CAMPAIGN UPDATE 12/10/13

3) ART AS MEDICINE

4) THE POWER OF THE BABY STEP

5) THE IMPORTANCE OF MOTIVATION

6) THE FOOD ISSUE

7) CREATIVE VISUALIZATION, GRATITUDE & APPRECIATION

8) RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE CATALOG

Z) IN CLOSING

 

 

CONTENTS OF TABLE

 

 

A) GREETING

I trust you are well, and I appreciate your readership.

 

1) WHO IS THE RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE?

 Haitian/Chinese-American multi-media healing artist Cassendre Xavier coined the term *"renaissance negresse" in 2002. A musician, writer, actress,and fine artist, Xavier (who sometimes works under the names Amethyste Rah and Amrita Waterfalls, and is also an ordained interfaith minister) says the term describes a black woman who is skilled or gifted in 3 or more arts. Xavier is a recipient of a Leeway Transformation Award for her work as acommunity cultural arts advocate, having founded and directed several Philadelphia arts initiatives including the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002) and the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003), as well as several peer support groups related to personal growth, creativity, healing, and recovery.

 Cassendre has released 6 albums of music, 2 guided meditation recordings, and has been published several chapbooks and in various publications. She is the author of Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: A Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook & Journal. She is originally from Brooklyn, NY and has been living creatively and joyfully in Philadelphia since 1990. [*"Negresse, Negre: In the French- and Spanish-speaking Caribbean Islands, these words often have a connotation of affection, entirely non-racial in meaning. `Ma petite negresse, mon negre, are equivalent to`My dear, my darling, my sweet.'" [From Masters of the Dew, a contemporary classic novel by the Haitian author Jacques Roumain, translated by Langston Hughes and Mercer

Cook.]

 

2) GOFUND ME CAMPAIGN UPDATE 12/10/13

My Fundraising Link: http://www.gofundme.com/3ik8b8

$1,522 raised by 37 people in 5 months. Goal: $6,600.00. Remaining amount to raise: $5,078.

Why the fundraiser? Initially it was to help me move out by Aug 1. I received enough donations to do that, thank you! I had asked for a total of $6,600 which included what I thought I would need to live on for the next 6 months while I got myself together. Then, I thought I was doing well enough to announce a Megabus Tour, and announced that, then I went to Michigan and it turns out I'm not set up for a tour just yet. Then, I thought I'd announce it's time to move to California, and then I learned I'm not ready to move just yet, either. Basically, I was right the first time, I *do* need help to get back on my feet! So, in a few days, I'll be changing the wording of the GoFundMe page, but it still works just fine for accepting donations! (I am still unemployed, not living on my own, dealing with depression, bipolar, etc.) In a very soon forthcoming museletter, I will answer burning such questions such as "Why don't you record a new album", "Why aren't you performing?" etc.

 Meanwhile, thank you to all who have donated so far. Here below is the list I've been promising for months, along with links to public figures among ye. Muy danke!

 

Wilson Gil (http://www.wilsongil.com ) "Hope this helps! Hang in there girl!"

Anonymous

Anonymous

Felice Shays, "I'm a friend of Kelli Dunham and want this world to be an easier place for you. Sending strength and the ability to see the sky."

Kelli Dunham (http://kellidunham.com)

Anonymous

Anonymous

Gina Renzi (http://www.therotunda.org), "You can do it, CX!"

Anonymous

Melissa Shapiro, "Good luck with your move!"

Anonymous

Anonymous

Angel Hogan (http://angelhogan.com), "I believe in you and your art, CX!"

Carol Squires           

Tori Vogt, "Keep blessing the world and yourself with your art and craft."

Anonymous

Anonymous

Anonymous

Annette Burgess, "Sending love and light. Xoxo"

Ebony Malaika Collier (http://ebonymcollier.tumblr.com/)    

Alexis & Jon (http://bindlestiffbooks.wordpress.com), "Best wishes!"

Anonymous

Anonymous

Anonymous

Anonymous

Anonymous

Otter Escovitz (http://shewho.org)

Anonymous

Anonymous

Michell Doucette, "I am so glad to read that things are going much better for you. I heard you sing in the train station in Philly several years ago. You and your music made me feel so much better during a very difficult time for me. I still listen to your CD when I need to relax. I wish I had more to give you but every little bit helps, even if just to lift our spirits! You will remain in my thoughts and if any extra money comes my way, I will pass it on to you as I am sure you will do someday for others in need! Keep smiling through the rain while you await the rainbow."

Monica McIntyre (http://www.reverbnation.com/monicamcintyre) , "Dear Cassendre, Remember the Truth about yourself: You are Divine & Deserving of Every Good Thing...the Universe is conspiring to shower you with Abundance!!" (CX says: Monica has her own GoFundMe Campaign for her upcoming CD, "It Soon Come". The campaign is doing really well and you can see/contribute to it at http://www.gofundme.com/3xxznk!)

Anonymous

Anonymous

Gretchen Elise Walker (http://gretchenelise.com), "Cassendre you have a way with words, you make them do flips and pirouettes and gymnastics and gyrations and all the same make the reader smile. Thank you."

Anonymous

Rupert Wates (http://rupertwates.com)

Silivia A, "I appreciate your creative talents."

 

Thank you all again, and for those of you who are considering donating, My Fundraising Link: http://www.gofundme.com/3ik8b8 (Please share!) and you can snail mail checks/money orders Payable to Cassendre Xavier, 4530 Baltimore Ave, Philadelphia, PA 19143-3507. May all be well with you :-)

 

3) ART AS MEDICINE

I've been blogging every day and it has felt very good. I feel better. You can read them all at http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com.

I've gone back to recording YouTube videos as a multi-media healing artist. The latest was recorded and released yesterday, called "How to Get Up When You're Really, Really Down" at http://youtu.be/1Lh3lvaR_A8.

 

4) THE POWER OF THE BABY STEP

With my baby thoughts today, I was able to start a project I've been procrastinating on for months: copying and pasting the content of all of my websites into email and word documents so as to archive them for future use. I plan to delete my current websites within 3 weeks and build new ones after. I was able to start by doing one little baby step at a time. Whereas thinking about the entire task, and it's a big task, was too overwhelming for me to get out of bed, this time I told myself I was going to do just a tiny bit. Just one page of one site. Just get started. And that got me into the next step. Throughout the process, I was able to do some archiving on my CX website, and about a third of the BWAF Philly site http://BWAFphilly.homestead.com. I was able to set up a working table in my room. I also was able to think about my more productive days and what made them workable, even during my very depressed days. I had a huge breakthrough! When I had use of a BlackBerry phone with internet access, I did a lot of my work online with that little phone. I was even able to do most of a paid contracted job event planning for a national women's organization using that phone.

 Using baby steps in my thinking about how to be more functional while depressed, I got to a place of recognizing that it's very helpful for me to have a mobile internet device that I can use while lying down. It's not that all of my day has to be spent in bed (even working in bed), but it's a wonderful tool to have for time such as this – while I am grieving and depressed.

 While I was thinking about how I could get more work done right now as I am doing today, I realized the heavy 17" laptop was holding me back. It's wonderful to have as a computer – as I once used a desktop – but I can't travel well with it or use it in bed comfortably. That was helpful. Power of the baby step.

 

5)     THE IMPORTANCE OF MOTIVATION

I used to listen to guided meditations most of the day. I found they really helped to quiet my mind, slow my thoughts and fill my consciousness with positive, expansive thoughts of love, encouragement, peace, and possibility. I was in a space of believing in the abundance of the universe, increased my skill in navigating the Law of Attraction, and knowing I deserved good things, just by virtue of being alive and not having to earn them. But mostly I just used guided meditations to replace the "old tapes" in my head with new ones.

Today, I used that method in a new way: I played YouTube videos while I worked on my laptop. It felt not only good to do the work I was supposed to be doing, but to also listen to people who always encourage me. This time it was Savonn Champelle, whom I highly recommend: http://www.youtube.com/DivineMessages777

 

6)     THE FOOD ISSUE

I guess I'm supposed to talk about how little raw vegan food I've consumed today and how I've eaten way too much other stuff and at first I was going to say I didn't want to talk about it, but now maybe I'll make it an opportunity to acknowledge the Law of Attraction thing and try to up my game: I feel progress is being made all the time and I'm really grateful for this forum to be among the ones I have to get me to the place I want to get to.

 I feel things are clearer now for me and I'm excited about the journey I'm on! I know I'm on my way to great health!

I feel much closer to the reality I am choosing for myself as a clean eating healthy active vibrant creative artist!

 

7)     CREATIVE VISUALIZATION, GRATITUDE & APPRECIATION

When it comes to thinking about myself as a raw vegan and actively dating again, I've been doing a few things. I've been doing creative visualization, and I've been practicing gratitude and appreciation for what I've had and what I will have again. It has felt really good to know how blessed I've been as a raw vegan and as a girlfriend and as a lover, and I'm really glad to know I'm building a bridge to more and better of those things in the near future!

 

8) RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE CATALOG

a) 6 CDs oflive and studio music (2002-2009/Serious Creature Music):http://cdbaby.com/all/cassendre

b) 2 albums todownload at iTunes: http://tinyurl.com/CXiTunes

c) CXTV- theofficial CX YouTube channel: http://tinyurl.com/CXYouTube

d) Book –Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: A Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook &Journal (2009/ARtivist Publications), sold at Essene Market & Café(Philadelphia) and Arnold's Way Raw Vegetarian Café & Educational Center(Lansdale, PA).

e) Ebooks –Expanding Your Capacity for Joy (see above), and This is What a MillionaireLooks Like (Essays) available at http://ARTivistPublications.homestead.comor email cxwriting(at)gmail.com

f) Inspiringor humorous daily writings:http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com,http://facebook.com/cassendrexavier

g) WisdomMagazine online edition articles: http://tinyurl.com/CXWisdom

h) Amethyste'sInk inspiring cardstock stationery and postcards: Send a business-sized SASE (self-addressedstamped envelope) for sample: Cassendre Xavier, 4530 Baltimore Ave, Philadelphia, PA 19143-3507.

i) Archives ofCassendre Xavier museletters (including "Me! Me! Me!"):http://groups.yahoo.com/group/cassendrexavieror http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com.

 

Z) IN CLOSING

I thank you for your time. Make yourself a beautiful day!

 

Writing for us all,

 

Cassendre Xavier

(aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls)

Musician, Writer, Actress, Fine Artist

Award-winning Founder & Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival

http://cassendrexavier.com

 

 

© Copyright 2013 by Cassendre Xavier. All rightzen reservanitzkhen. Any or all parts of this article may be printed without permission as long as it is not used for financial gain or profit, and the title, credit and website link are included as follows: "Diary of a renaissance negresse Dec 12, 2013 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved by, and reprinted with the kind permission of the author. For more information, please visit http://cassendrexavier.com."

 

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Thursday, December 12, 2013

How to Get Up When You're Really Really Down

Hi, folks!

Check out my new YouTube video "How to Get Up When You're Really Really Down" http://youtu.be/1Lh3lvaR_A8.

Enjoy :-)

Cassendre

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Diary of a renaissance negresse Dec 12, 2012

 

 

Diary of a renaissance negresse

                                                                                                       

 

Thursday, December 12, 2013

 

by Cassendre Xavier

 

 

Today I am grateful for salt, water, the resilience of the body in the service of life, the phrase "All Is Well", writing, music, angels, my heart, and more.

 

 

TABLE OF CONTENTS

 

A) GREETING

1) WHO IS THE RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE?

2) GOFUNDME CAMPAIGN UPDATE 12/10/13

3) LOST MY TEXT MESSAGING SERVICE

4) SWEET FEEDBACK FROM YESTERDAY'S DIARY ENTRY!

5) I DID STUFF TODAY!

6) HEART WORK

7) SPIRITUALITY

8) RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE CATALOG

Z) IN CLOSING

 

 

CONTENTS OF TABLE

 

 

A) GREETING

I trust you are well, and I appreciate your readership.

 

1) WHO IS THE RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE?

 Haitian/Chinese-American multi-media healing artist Cassendre Xavier coined the term *"renaissance negresse" in 2002. A musician, writer, actress,and fine artist, Xavier (who sometimes works under the names Amethyste Rah and Amrita Waterfalls, and is also an ordained interfaith minister) says the term describes a black woman who is skilled or gifted in 3 or more arts. Xavier is a recipient of a Leeway Transformation Award for her work as acommunity cultural arts advocate, having founded and directed several Philadelphia arts initiatives including the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002) and the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003), as well as several peer support groups related to personal growth, creativity, healing, and recovery.

 Cassendre has released 6 albums of music, 2 guided meditation recordings, and has been published several chapbooks and in various publications. She is the author of Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: A Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook & Journal. She is originally from Brooklyn, NY and has been living creatively and joyfully in Philadelphia since 1990. [*"Negresse, Negre: In the French- and Spanish-speaking Caribbean Islands, these words often have a connotation of affection, entirely non-racial in meaning. `Ma petite negresse, mon negre, are equivalent to`My dear, my darling, my sweet.'" [From Masters of the Dew, a contemporary classic novel by the Haitian author Jacques Roumain, translated by Langston Hughes and Mercer

Cook.]

 

2) GOFUND ME CAMPAIGN UPDATE 12/10/13

My Fundraising Link: http://www.gofundme.com/3ik8b8

$1,522 raised by 37 people in 5 months. Goal: $6,600.00. Remaining amount to raise: $5,078.

Why the fundraiser? Initially it was to help me move out by Aug 1. I received enough donations to do that, thank you! I had asked for a total of $6,600 which included what I thought I would need to live on for the next 6 months while I got myself together. Then, I thought I was doing well enough to announce a Megabus Tour, and announced that, then I went to Michigan and it turns out I'm not set up for a tour just yet. Then, I thought I'd announce it's time to move to California, and then I learned I'm not ready to move just yet, either. Basically, I was right the first time, I *do* need help to get back on my feet! So, in a few days, I'll be changing the wording of the GoFundMe page, but it still works just fine for accepting donations! (I am still unemployed, not living on my own, dealing with depression, bipolar, etc.) In a very soon forthcoming museletter, I will answer burning such questions such as "Why don't you record a new album", "Why aren't you performing?" etc.

 Meanwhile, thank you to all who have donated so far. Here below is the list I've been promising for months, along with links to public figures among ye. Muy danke!

 

Wilson Gil (http://www.wilsongil.com ) "Hope this helps! Hang in there girl!"

Anonymous

Anonymous

Felice Shays, "I'm a friend of Kelli Dunham and want this world to be an easier place for you. Sending strength and the ability to see the sky."

Kelli Dunham (http://kellidunham.com)

Anonymous

Anonymous

Gina Renzi (http://www.therotunda.org), "You can do it, CX!"

Anonymous

Melissa Shapiro, "Good luck with your move!"

Anonymous

Anonymous

Angel Hogan (http://angelhogan.com), "I believe in you and your art, CX!"

Carol Squires           

Tori Vogt, "Keep blessing the world and yourself with your art and craft."

Anonymous

Anonymous

Anonymous

Annette Burgess, "Sending love and light. Xoxo"

Ebony Malaika Collier (http://ebonymcollier.tumblr.com/)    

Alexis & Jon (http://bindlestiffbooks.wordpress.com), "Best wishes!"

Anonymous

Anonymous

Anonymous

Anonymous

Anonymous

Otter Escovitz (http://shewho.org)

Anonymous

Anonymous

Michell Doucette, "I am so glad to read that things are going much better for you. I heard you sing in the train station in Philly several years ago. You and your music made me feel so much better during a very difficult time for me. I still listen to your CD when I need to relax. I wish I had more to give you but every little bit helps, even if just to lift our spirits! You will remain in my thoughts and if any extra money comes my way, I will pass it on to you as I am sure you will do someday for others in need! Keep smiling through the rain while you await the rainbow."

Monica McIntyre (http://www.reverbnation.com/monicamcintyre) , "Dear Cassendre, Remember the Truth about yourself: You are Divine & Deserving of Every Good Thing...the Universe is conspiring to shower you with Abundance!!" (CX says: Monica has her own GoFundMe Campaign for her upcoming CD, "It Soon Come". The campaign is doing really well and you can see/contribute to it at http://www.gofundme.com/3xxznk!)

Anonymous

Anonymous

Gretchen Elise Walker (http://gretchenelise.com), "Cassendre you have a way with words, you make them do flips and pirouettes and gymnastics and gyrations and all the same make the reader smile. Thank you."

Anonymous

Rupert Wates (http://rupertwates.com)

Silivia A, "I appreciate your creative talents."

 

Thank you all again, and for those of you who are considering donating, My Fundraising Link: http://www.gofundme.com/3ik8b8 (Please share!) and you can snail mail checks/money orders Payable to Cassendre Xavier, 4530 Baltimore Ave, Philadelphia, PA 19143-3507. May all be well with you :-)

 

3) LOST MY TEXT MESSAGING SERVICE!

So often when there are breakdowns, we forget to look at the lessons or even sometimes the blessings in them. In my case, I'm temporarily without text messaging again on my phone; I can only text when I'm online via Google Voice. This is the universe telling me I'm not supposed to be dealing with free government phones. It's a sign my energy output isn't in balance with what the world needs. If it were, I'd have all the tools I need to be comfortable. I don't mind the struggle as long as I'm learning and doing what I can with whatever's going on with me at the moment. And for now, I know I'm supposed to be doing whatever I can to get my depressed and bipolar self back in shape and on the stage again. I only pray for the patience to live day to day with these challenges in the meantime. (But I also always remind myself that circumstances can change in an instant, so maybe the "meantime" will be short!)

 

4) SWEET  FEEDBACK FROM YESTERDAY'S DIARY ENTRY!

 

Hi Cassendre,

 

I love your newsletters. I, too, have gained weight, this time after grief over my grandmother dying. I just remember that ounce for ounce, fat burned as calories generates more power than dynamite, ounce for ounce. So when I gain weight it means I need the power for the big blast-off I'm preparing to make.

 

Be well,

V

 

 

5) I DID STUFF TODAY!

I can't wait to be in Philadelphia again. Yes, I want to move to California to begin planning the next Black  Women's Arts Festival, but so far it looks like I'll have to be in a city before I can do that. And by that I mean a non-suburban city. I don't drive so I can't even get around where I am now. I need to get things done before I move. I think so, anyway. I mean, as I write these words it occurs to me I may not have to. All things are possible. I could do a Kickstarter fundraiser for the BWAF and then if that's accomplished, then do another one to raise funs for my California move. Or I could include costs for the move in the one campaign. I've read the rules of Kickstarter and I'm not sure I can do all in one, but then again, maybe I can, because I saw a woman successfully raise funds to travel to perform in a festival she'd been accepted to. I hate to be so race-conscious, but she's black – that's what I was looking for.

 Anyway, before I get all digress-y, the stuff I did today was write and send a letter to the County Assistance Office asking my case worker to call me so I can complete the renewal process to continue receiving my food stamp and Medicaid benefits. They expire on December 31 and s/he was supposed to call me on Monday Dec 9 and I didn't receive that call. I tried reaching hir by phone to no avail – the line was constantly busy.

 It took me a lot of energy to just write that. Last night I did the dishes, and it felt good to go to bed with nothing to do in the kitchen. Usually I wake up early in the morning to clean up so the lady of the house (of my host family) doesn't have to see a dirty kitchen before she goes off to work. But one time weeks ago, my meds time changed from 7am to 9am (I overslept one morning) and it made it harder for me to get the kitchen all cleaned up by the time she left.

 I've just about gotten back to 7:30am now. So, I cleaned up the kitchen before bed. Huge accomplishment. So good not to have to worry about getting up to do anything other than go downstairs for my green smoothie to take with my morning meds, which, by the way, are one medication for my bipolar and two for high blood pressure.

 I also – let's see what else did I do. Oh, I prayed before getting out of bed for the day. That was huge. I've been really thinking about this getting on my knees thing. Oprah has been doing that for her whole life, and Al Sharpton does that, and I often think about that and I've done it once in a while. I get mixed up sometimes in thinking that the only people who accomplish really big things in life kneel when they pray. But that isn't true. I thought about Penn Jillette who's an atheist and has a great career in Vegas. But then I weighed the value of a clown, literally, Jillette studied clownery (clownship?) in college who works in a veritable Sodom & Gomorrah – I got all judge-y, like, Oprah and Al Sharpton are doing major work in the world to help people, Oprah with her self-actualization movement and Sharpton with civil rights. Then I realized I was comparing, which was utterly futile. And now I'm wondering if I should've created another chapter here called "Spirituality" or something because it's getting so detailed, but I don't really see the need.

 As I write this, I'm watching an old episode of Murder She Wrote (are there any new ones?) and two of the co-stars are Jerry Orbach (love him!) and Levar Burton (love him more!).

 What else did I do. Oh yeah, I prayed, and you know what, I will mention this in another section.

 I think I did some other stuff. I don't remember. Oh, yeah, I delivered a piece of mis-delivered mail to our neighbor three doors down. I feel like I also made an important call, but that was yesterday. I did check my phone to see if it was able to make text messages out. This may not sound like a lot, but it took me hours to muster up the gumption to do that. I was awash with fear as I put together one plus one – the texts I'd sent last night weren't received, and the ones sent to my Google Voice number went to my online account, but not to my phone. I felt so bad it took me that long to finally check. I didn't want to check when I was feeling so afraid. I waited until I was hoping for the best.

 Oh, I made my bed a couple of times. I moved my laptop to underneath my bed. I tidied up my room a little bit. I think that's it. Wow. It's good to write down what I did, because I (and perhaps more importantly others) can see how little it is and how much effort it takes to do. Let me rest on the laurels of what I did yesterday – I was on the phone for a while with Phila CAO trying to reach my case worker about renewing my benefits. Eh, I don't remember what else.

                                       

6) HEART WORK

Overeating in the very late night hours, I felt my heart hurt. My chest hurt. I asked myself why I was hurting my heart and I kept getting the answer that I was a hurting little girl. It's not like I was just snacking in the middle of the night. It was "just" an ill-timed dinner. And it wasn't high in fat or anything. Rice, beans, lentils, and two pieces of fried chicken. I so clearly felt my heart hurt. It really made me think about cardiovascular dis-ease. That's what hypertension is, right? I'll read into it, but in my body, and in my soul, what makes sense is my heart and my food are totally connected. As I was eating and feeling my heart hurt, I was getting all sorts of messages I hadn't noticed before. Before, when I overate, I was only aware of my stomach. My belly, and my brain.

 Another thing about my heart work is it made me think about forgiveness. I'm using my heart more in making choices. I had an argument with someone months ago and yesterday I thought I'd apply my heart energy to the problem, and the message I got was, "This persun is choosing to remain angry with you because she's angry with herself." Not with the situation but with herself almost every day and about many things. She's angry at life and angry with people who have wronged her and she just doesn't have an extra reserve of forgiveness to reach out to or accept you again. Unless you do something to reach out. Ego had kept me from even considering reaching out to her before. Now, doing so is on my Things to Do list. (I thought of it yesterday and it takes me a couple of days to do something, even if it's something that's fun and I actually want to do it, let alone something that will take an effort!)

Another thing that happened relating to my heart and relationships and forgiveness is that I had a dream last night that someone I've probably most wronged in my life was in, and she forgave me. Actually, she's not the most wronged persun, but perhaps the one I'm most reminded about because our paths keep crossing over the years. That was really special.

 Another way I used my heart in making a decision was regarding how I continue building my own raw vegan eating disorder recovery program. (I began in 2009 with Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: A Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook & Journal.)

 In the olden days, I rejected anyone else's raw vegan website because I thought I was supposed to only build my own, and anything else was sub-par to and distracting me from designing my own program – similar to the way many of us musicians avoid listening to music when we're in the process of creating a new album.

 This time, my heart opened, when I asked for its advice about www.FullyRaw.com – as I'd often enjoyed Kristina's videos on YouTube. A friend on Facebook sent me the link to FullyRaw's fan page and I "Liked" it because of the up to date information. I was looking at the FullyRaw website, which I had seen months before, and I thought I didn't want to check out yet another individual's raw vegan company. What could it possibly have for me? I'd already seen millions of them, they were largely the same, and if they couldn't help me with my issues which made it so difficult to stay raw, if a well-known 12 Step program for compulsive overeaters which I'd been in and out of and finally left after 27 years – if working in a raw vegan restaurant didn't help me (granted there were extenuating circumstances that made it so), why even bother?

 I asked my heart and it said to give it a chance and that we all need help. And that perhaps Kristina had something different going on – something that could help me. Yesterday, I went to the website, after reading her "About" from her Fan Page, and I thought, well her goal is to help people and perhaps her website is a community of people supporting each other – as I've seen elsewhere, which still didn't resonate with or attract me. Anyway, I tried, because her "About" said that FullyRaw is all about helping people deal with the challenges of staying raw. It said that we all have different reasons that make it hard. Mind you, pre-heart work phase I would never even bother.

 Anyway, this time, I asked my heart and my heart told me, "Why do you always think you have do everything alone? You don't have to work completely alone on this problem in your life. Look at the others who have built successful businesses on the raw lifestyle and remained successfully raw and healthy  - they've used other systems. They haven't gone it totally alone the whole time. Try something new. You don't have to stick to everything you try, but do try. It's safe to try. When you expect so much from everything you try, you set up other people's efforts to fail in your eyes. Whereas if you lightly jump from plan to plan, you can increase your love and strengthen your heart by appreciating their work. They don't have to be your everything. They don't have to be your anything. But you are depriving yourself and restricting yourself by not trying. When you don't consider them as valid, you also don't consider yourself as valid. Check out other people's programs. And if or when they don't suit you, appreciate them for what they are and release them with love. Take what you like and leave the rest. You've done this with your spiritual program. Now, I invite you to try it with your dietary program and lifestyle."

 So I went to FullyRaw and saw that she didn't have what I was seeking. From what I saw, her way of helping people deal with their specific issues that make it hard for them to stay raw is coaching, or other services I can't immediately use myself. But I was able to appreciate a lot, about her website, and I still really like what she stands for and all her bubbly loving energy.

 One note about Kristina – I saw on her Facebook fan page yesterday that her company FullyRaw was contacted by and had supplied raw vegan dishes and supplies to none other than Beyonce for her Houston show. Kristina received VIP backstage passes and everything. She was very excited. See how I'm using periods all the time instead of exclamation points? You'd think this is something I'd use exclamations for at least some of the time, right? An independent, beautiful, vibrant, female, raw vegan entrepreneur supplying food for one of the biggest stars of the world? This is big news. It's huge and wonderful! Okay, there's one. Anyway. Two reasons I'm not using exclamation points galore – one, my body isn't highly raw right now and two, I'm depressed.

 Even when I haven't been very depressed (I've been at least mildly depressed consistently for at least the last two years), I haven't liked the super hyper exclamation pointed writings of raw vegans. They use a lot of punctuation and colors and they're all over the place – it gets on my nerves and perhaps triggers me as a bipolar. Maybe it looks too manic or something, but that really irks me.)

 Anyway, heart work gave me the invitation to have that new experience. So, I will be looking at more indie raw vegan entrepreneurs and athletes. Also, I'll be looking at women's writings about weight, and writings about overeating/eating disorders and how sexual abuse affects eating habits, etc… I'm looking at all of that and am going to continue writing about my own experience, strength, and hope!

 

7) SPIRITUALITY

I don't always know exactly how to pray. I grew up Fundamentalist Christian but much of that didn't serve me for various reasons. I've been away from my usual nightstand set-up of my New Age/angel guided meditations and Law of Attraction and A Course In Miracles books. So, since August 1 when I moved out of my previous home, I haven't been enriching my spiritual life. I do have some of the most essential materials with me, but I haven't set them up because there was no lamp on the nightstand in the room I'm in now. A few weeks ago, I brought one from my previous place's basement storage, but I still haven't set it up. I'm afraid it might not work or I'll have to look/ask for a light bulb, etc. Anyway, that would be a very good thing for me to do.

 So, this morning I lay awake asking myself how best to pray. Since at age 38 I decided to not entertain any fear thoughts from those old religions and to create my own religion/spirituality, I just did what I do now – I asked myself – I asked my heart: How do I pray?

 The answer I got from my inner wisdom was to relax, to feel good, feel comfortable, and be appreciative. I got that I can show appreciation and also ask for help or anything else I want. But that the most important thing was to not worry and to show appreciation. Not as an order. Not as a way to worship a "jealous" god, but just because that's where it's at. Not to show appreciation "or else" be punished. Just because there simply is so much to be appreciative of. Just acknowledging the greatness and beauty of life. So I did that and I didn't even ask for anything, although I expressed a neediness in my soul for comfort. Whenever I've done that in the past, my prayers have been answered. It's some kind of magickal blend of both giving and receiving beautiful things and gifts from the universe – both recognizing I am a gift and I deserve gifts. We Are All One so as I pray, I am experiencing the Oneness that I am with the One.

 

8) RENAISSANCE NEGRESSE CATALOG

a) 6 CDs oflive and studio music (2002-2009/Serious Creature Music):http://cdbaby.com/all/cassendre

b) 2 albums todownload at iTunes: http://tinyurl.com/CXiTunes

c) CXTV- theofficial CX YouTube channel: http://tinyurl.com/CXYouTube

d) Book –Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: A Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook &Journal (2009/ARtivist Publications), sold at Essene Market & Café(Philadelphia) and Arnold's Way Raw Vegetarian Café & Educational Center(Lansdale, PA).

e) Ebooks –Expanding Your Capacity for Joy (see above), and This is What a MillionaireLooks Like (Essays) available at http://ARTivistPublications.homestead.comor email cxwriting(at)gmail.com

f) Inspiringor humorous daily writings:http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com,http://facebook.com/cassendrexavier

g) WisdomMagazine online edition articles: http://tinyurl.com/CXWisdom

h) Amethyste'sInk inspiring cardstock stationery and postcards: Send a business-sized SASE (self-addressedstamped envelope) for sample: Cassendre Xavier, 4530 Baltimore Ave, Philadelphia, PA 19143-3507.

i) Archives ofCassendre Xavier museletters (including "Me! Me! Me!"):http://groups.yahoo.com/group/cassendrexavieror http://cassendrexavier.blogspot.com.

 

Z) IN CLOSING

I thank you for your time. Make yourself a beautiful day!

 

Writing for us all,

 

Cassendre Xavier

(aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls)

Musician, Writer, Actress, Fine Artist

Award-winning Founder & Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival

http://cassendrexavier.com

 

 

© Copyright 2013 by Cassendre Xavier. All rightzen reservanitzkhen. Any or all parts of this article may be printed without permission as long as it is not used for financial gain or profit, and the title, credit and website link are included as follows: "Diary of a renaissance negresse Dec 12, 2013 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved by, and reprinted with the kind permission of the author. For more information, please visit http://cassendrexavier.com."

 

Be a renaissance negresse m/patron/appreciator/supporter! http://www.gofundme.com/3ik8b8