Friday, January 25, 2013

When Was the Last Time You Wrote a New Song?

[Disclaimer: This was written on a mobile cellular unit, without benefit of speedy, comfy, virtually error-proof keyboard. Please forgive grammatical, spelling, and typographical errors. Thank you!]

Friday, Venus, Day of Love. January 25, 2013.

"When was the last time you wrote a new song?" he, my creative soulmate, asked on Tuesday. Goddess, he gets on my nerves.
"Over a year ago," I answered, clearly allowing my annoyance to show. "What's the point of writing new songs," I continued, adding begrudgingly, "when no one's going to come to my shows or buy any CDs?"

Since 2002 I've independently released 8 CDs, 3 studio EPs, 3 live EPs, and 2 compilations.
Each time I've prepared a studio album, I've had enough material, songs, and concepts for 4-6 future EPs. It became too tiresome to continue releasing albums when, apparently, after a few years "the thrill [seemed] gone" from my fans.

I'm sure my focusing on other projects (my multi-genre writing for publication, the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series http://WomensWritingSeries.homestead.com, the Black Women's Arts Festival http://BWAFphilly.homestead.com, making stationery and candles) not to mention working a full-time day job that had nothing to do with these took me away from putting the time and energy into properly marketing and promoting my albums.

But at the time I didn't see how I was contributing to my CD/mp3 sales and concert attendance diminishing over the years. I was just burnt-out, bitter, jaded, tired, frustrated.

I wanted to release albums, but goddamn it not if they weren't going to sell and make me diddlysquat.

So I stopped writing songs.

Now I'm realizing that I need to write new songs no matter what, because that's what God made me to be: a musician.

I need to write no matter what (and speak my truth from my heart), even if I don't immediately have an outlet to publish and make money from my writing. Because God made me a writer.

I've kept God's love inside me for so many years. I forgot how music and writing saved my life as a teen. I forgot how my music and writing and other artmaking usually support themselves, and me, when I am freely expressing them.

I knew my friend was right.

So, tonight I worked on 4 "new" songs in progress. I say "new" because at least one is as old as born in 2007.

I want to thank Kenny "Art-n-Soul" Lashlee who advised me years ago also to write new songs. Again, I didn't see the point then, because I saw no outlet for their visibility and success. I'd lost my faith. My vision was limited.

I've been on the path back to joy as an artist. Of spiritual correctness, enlightenment, fulfillment, and obedience.

Tonight I worked on new songs and I believed in my success. In the music God placed inside of me reaching the far corners of the world. Of my dreams coming true of playing with a band and having lots of singers and all my earthly needs be easily and abundantly met as a result of my sharing, freely, generously, and joyously expressing my gifts and my writing. Today I did songwriting and posted this blog. Today I believe, and in and through me so does God.

~CX.

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Mini renaissance negresse catalog:

•CX Music Gallery at CD Baby http://cdbaby.com/all/cassendre
•CX at iTunes
http://tinyurl.com/CXiTunes

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• Monthly articles at Wisdom Magazine's Online Edition http:///tinyurl.com/CXWisdom
•CX Writing website, ARtivist Publications http://artivistpublications.homestead.com

•CXTV: Official YouTube Channel
http://youtube.com/cassEndrExavier or
http://tinyurl.com/CXYouTube

Artist Inspiration:
•Cassendre Xavier Enterprises http://cassEndrExavier.com
•Black Women's Arts Festival
http://BWAFphilly.homestead.com
•SARK (Susan Ariel Rainbow Kennedy)
http://PlanetSARK.com
•Barbara Sher, Bestselling author and coach
http://barbarasher.com


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Make yourself a beautiful day~

Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah aka Amrita Waterfalls)
renaissance negresse (musician/writer/visual artist/actress)
http://cassEndrExavier.com

Founder of the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002)
http://WomensWritingSeries.homestead.com

Founder & Director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women's Arts
Festival (Est. 2003) http://BWAFphilly.homestead.com
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BWAFphilly

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Willing to Receive: An Affirmation for Abundance

Check out my January 2013 article for Wisdom Magazine, "Willing to Receive: An Affirmation for Abundance!"

(It includes a link to my free YouTube video of the same title where I talk about how this affirmation helped me attract and wo/manifest three free computers and a large, comfortable home I lived in for three years!)

http://wisdom-magazine.com/Article.aspx/3009/

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Make yourself a beautiful day~

Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah aka Amrita Waterfalls)
renaissance negresse (musician/writer/visual artist/actress)
http://cassEndrExavier.com

Founder of the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002)
http://WomensWritingSeries.homestead.com

Founder & Director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women's Arts
Festival (Est. 2003) http://BWAFphilly.homestead.com
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BWAFphilly

Friday, January 18, 2013

If You're Going to Eat Dairy... (The Vitamin C Trick)

Being transitional from time to time what with my very glamorous food addiction/eating disorder and all (which I'm starting to think of as "eating like an American"), I do still eat processed, pasteurized, conventional cow's milk products (including cheese, ice cream, and yogurt).

Much of my raw journey, and indeed, success, has been possible by my willingness to allow imperfect, flawed, even addictive or self-destructive behaviors. I let myself "be bad", and I buffer my negative behaviors with healing, loving, corrective ones.

You can do this, too. You want a big-ass burger? Have it, enjoy it, and throw in a salad to go with it and add roughage to your meal. Your stomach (and colon) will thank you.
When I eat dairy, my body protests. My body creates mucus to flush out the toxins of dairy, my immune system takes a hit and in a couple of weeks I have cold-like symptoms (more mucus to clean my system of the dairy). My eyes will itch and I'll take an allergy drug. My favorite is the day-long Zyrtec generic you can find at Dollar Tree or Dollar Express stores.

I found they make me much less sleepy than Benedryl and unlike Benedryl's once every 4-6 hour dosage, I only take this "All-Day Allergy Relief" once daily, or really, as needed. I know, I know, pharmaceutical drugs are toxic, etc. This is just where I'm at right now, folks. It won't be forever!

In addition, consuming dairy clogs and dulls my singing voice, shrinks my vocal range, and makes the skin on my face look very bad - grayish, very dry, rashy. I can see dairy's effect on my face 1-2 days after I've eaten it.

I have recently discovered a way to counteract the negative effects of consuming dairy: Vitamin C tablets. In general, I like to consume at least 5,000 mgs of Vitamin C per day. I get lots of C from the kale juice I drink and kale salads I eat. I also brush my teeth with kale paste, bathe with kale soap and moisturize with kale lotion. I kid, of course, but I do loves me some kale. Man does not live by bread alone, but I do believe we could all survive, and beautifully, on not much more than kale and water for a very long time - raw (fresh, uncooked) kale, of course. Maybe some fat (avocado, coconut) and some sweet (mango, grapes) for more nutrients and variety. But I digress...

Getting back to how you can enjoy your last dairy-eating experiences as you prepare to become the kind of persun who can easily do better - for yourself, for your community, and for out planet...

After your dairy-having meal, snack, or beverage, get 3 or 4 chewable Vitamin C tablets. Crush them into powder. Stir well into an 8 oz. glass of water. Drink it.

For me, it feels like the acid in the vitamin cuts the mucus my body begins to form, and the immune health strengthening benefit of the Vitamin C makes me completely healthy the next few days. No cold symptoms.
Case in point, I had ice cream for dessert tonight and I can still breathe comfortably and easily through both my nostrils, I haven't needed to blow my nose for the last 3 hours, and there's no phlegm in my throat.

I also ate a bit of cheese earlier today and followed that up with 3 tablets (1,500 mg total) of C in water. Then, 2,000 mgs after I ate ice cream. And about 100 oz. diluted blended greens "juice". I feel wonderful :-)

If you're a dairy eater who is trying to eat and be healthier, please try this and Comment on your experience. Thank you for your time!

In photosynthetic, chloro-filled, deLIGHTfull Sun Raw-Rah-Rah!

Cassendre

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Make yourself a beautiful day~

Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah aka Amrita Waterfalls)
renaissance negresse (musician/writer/visual artist/actress)
http://cassEndrExavier.com

Founder of the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002)
http://WomensWritingSeries.homestead.com

Founder & Director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women's Arts
Festival (Est. 2003) http://BWAFphilly.homestead.com
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BWAFphilly

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Raw Food, Sexuality & Life Skills Update

Greetings from the renaissance negresse!
Here is my...

RAW FOOD, SEXUALITY & LIFE SKILLS UPDATE for...

Thursday, January 17, 2013

RAW ANGEL TRANSFORMATION VIDEO UPDATE
My Flip Video camera may need a new battery pack. It only works now for seconds at a time.
When that's fixed I'll need to find a computer to upload them. (I'm between offices and between computers. Hopefully the one I received a few days ago will work. I'll keep you all posted.)

JUST FOR TODAY
Today I juiced kale and swiss chard enough for two days. (Although I own a juicer, I rarely use it these days. Usually when I say I'm juicing what I'm actually doing is blending with water, then straining the fiber out.  Sometimes, if I'm eating too much cooked food, I'll keep the fiber in.)
I drank this juice in the morning and lots more at night. It's dark like muddy blood and feels essential in my system.
I did raw vegan visualizations and affirmations.
I thought again about juice feasting and gave myself permission to step outside the bounds of my eating disorder recovery group, remembering I can "take what (I) like and leave the rest".

QUESTIONING MY PROGRAM
Alright, I'll say it: The recovery program I participate in for my eating disorder is not a joyous one. I am not attracted to most things about it. I know it has enough of what I need. For now, I'll stick with it. Thankfully, it isn't the only tool in my repetoire. I wondered why I see so few raw vegans in my program. Then I remembered it's because our program's members' identities are meant to be hidden from non-members.
Then I thought, I don't see vibrant, athletic members. The angels reminded me of two members "who have what (I) want". I recalled this is a group where our meetings focus on our so-called disease of compulsive food behaviors. No wonder I'm not always happy to be there. The angels also reminded me that this group is exactly what I need when I'm "in the food". I am very grateful for it and for the Fellowship.

LIFE SKILLS & SEXUALITY UPDATE
In August 2007 I released two spoken word self-help/spiritual CD/downloads:

•Affirmations for Survivors: Self-Love (Guided Meditations by Amethyste Rah) and part 2 of a 4-part series...
•Affirmations for Survivors: Spirituality.

Parts 3 and 4, which I'm working on now, will be on Sexuality (3) and Life Skills (4).

You can hear/rip them for free at my official YouTube channel CXTV http://tinyurl.com/CXYouTube or email me at cxmusic(at)gmail.com to order.

At first, I asked myself why talk about this in my raw vegan update. Then I realized that my relationship to food affects and is the same as my relationship with sex and money. Also, when I go raw, my body changes, affecting both my sexuality and my work life.
So, it fits to discuss my progress in life skills and sexuality on my raw vegan blog.

I am learning to care for myself in new and better ways. I am discovering very strong emotions and other than excellent ways of thinking I'm excited about and becoming well-equipped at easily transforming.

SEX, ANGER, LOVE, AND PRETENDING
I'm observing there is much anger.
I see where I have pretended in my relationships; where I have let obvious truths slide, opting to neglect my own needs and accepting someone else's conditions - conditions I valued over my own non-existent ones.
Love, anger, and pretending exist in my work life as well. I see where I have avoided love by neglecting to passionately and consistently following my bliss. I have been angry because my life's conditions have weakened or become unpleasant as a result of this neglect. And I have pretended in ways that aren't even completely clear to me.

WHAT I AM CERTAIN OF TODAY
There's time to change.
There's room to grow.
There's always a way, and
Tomorrow's another day.

As the slogan goes: "Progress, not perfection."

Thank you for your time.


P.S. Correct link for the Black Women's Arts Festival is http://BWAFphilly.homestead.com.


(c) 2013 by Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah aka Amrita Waterfalls). All rights reserved.

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Make yourself a beautiful day~

Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah aka Amrita Waterfalls)
renaissance negresse (musician/writer/visual artist/actress)
http://cassEndrExavier.com

Founder, Curator and Musical Host of the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002) http://WomensWritingSeries.org

Founder & Participating Director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women's Arts
Festival (Est. 2003) http://BWAFphilly.org

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Real Beauty and the Urgency of Art

Greetings from the renaissance negresse!

I have lived and had thoughts today!
Some are as follows... I am grateful to share them thusly with you!

Being really beautiful (authentic, creative, self-expressed, passionate as artists) is about being uncertain.

Real beauty in a persun involves vulnerability. Most really beautiful people don't see themselves as others do. That is in part because they are too busy projecting their essence, which is then experienced by others as beauty.

I've watched Bjork cringe from praise in an interview with Charlie Rose, and Johnny Cash say to interviewer Kurt Loder that while he appreciates the adoration of his fans it has never changed the way he viewed himself.  

It is essential that for those of us whose art serves as our medicine that we make that art, lest we fall ill:

•Depression (clinical): When I don't write enough, I feel depressed. When I write and publish inspiring blogs and articles, I feel good, or at least I feel better.
•Depression (economic): When I don't perform concerts enough, I'm broke. When I perform a good number of shows, I make enough money to be comfortable, or more than comfortable.

I like knowing my words and voice help people. Good feelings and adequate compensation are the universe's way of saying, "Yes, this is what you are meant to do."

But overall, our art isn't necessarily meant to be our sole livelihood. We may make a living from it completely, or we may not.
Our art must be our SOUL LIVELIHOOD. It is meant to be fully expressed. It is not only okay to get a non-arts-related day job to make your art, it is a good and honorable thing to do - for your art, for your health, for your family, for your community, and for our planet. Your art is essential.

I have been experiencing often lately how much I need art, mine and other people's.
I am so glad those whose books, songs, and guided meditations keep me afloat during tumultuous times and moments of melancholy didn't hold back. They remind me to make my art however and as often as I can, maintaining along the way an intention to inspire and motivate others to do the same. We are meant to need each other.
My medicine is to write about my journey, tell my story, and sing my song.
Thank you for your time.

ARTIST INSPIRATION
Lettuce bee less concerned with how our art looks to others, and more concerned with how it feels for us to create it.

(c) Copyright 2013 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved.
http://cassEndrExavier.com

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Make yourself a beautiful day~

Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah aka Amrita Waterfalls)
renaissance negresse (musician/writer/visual artist/actress)
http://cassEndrExavier.com

Founder, Curator and Musical Host of the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002) http://WomensWritingSeries.org

Founder & Participating Director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women's Arts
Festival (Est. 2003) http://BWAFphilly.org