Monday, October 3, 2011

Diary of a renaissance negresse - 03 Oct 2011

Monday, October 3, 2011

I am feeling very good today. Getting lots done. Really healing and connecting with and understanding and being patient with myself and others.

Today is day 5 of a water fast I'm doing to spiritually heal from unhealthy eating habits. I drink water, and I allow myself to drink coffee (highly diluted decaf mostly during the day and evening, regular coffee in the morning to help me not sleep all day due to this highly drowsy-making allergy over the counter drug I'm on temporarily. I also allow myself to put lime or lemon juice in the water I drink all day (usually fresh-squeezed). I also allow myself to chew sugarless gum now and then. I allow myself to do whatever I want. I'm just choosing based on the consequences.

For instance, it is far from ideal to consume the chemicals that make up the artificial sweeteners in the gum I eat. And caffeine is also not good for me.

However, the benefits are:

1) It helps me greatly in avoiding eating anything right now, during my fast.

2) Neither coffee nor artificial sweeteners have any significant nutrients, which is the basic idea behind water fasting. Your body must rely on itself to fuel it. So it starts using your cells, starting with the sick, dying, or excess fat ones. So, I'm losing weight and detoxing as I ought to on a water fast.

3) Coffee and sugarless gum are toxic, so my detox is more gradual, as are the unpleasant detox symptoms. Once I accepted I wasn't "perfectly" doing my water fast - I realized the benefits - including that soon after detoxing, I wouldn't get the painful, and lipline-altering cold sore I always get when I've been 100% raw for a couple of weeks.

So, today and the previous 4 days, I am consuming no, or very low caloric, non-nutritive substances in liquid form only. (Gum is chewed but doesn't go down solid like candy does, so I allow myself gum but not candy, not even sugarless/low or no calorie or nutrition candy.) There are many benefits to this fast, and I just remind myself that even though numbers-wise I want to eventually see 140 or less on the scale, the idea is to: Get Healthy, Get Spiritual, Love and Accept Myself and Others, Be Serene with my Eating, and Live a Joyful, Powerful, Positive, FEARLESS Life!

My plan is to do the water fast for as long as I feel comfortable (people can live up to 60 days or more on water alone), then go to a juice "feast" as us rawheads call it, and then go to a lifelong, and easily maintained habit of eating only raw vegan foods and drinking a large amount of my other nutritive intake. My plan is to learn how to eat right and to get all the support I need to do it. Support group meetings, potlucks, and dining with friends very often will be a large part of my life in the next few months. And writing every day as well as prayer, meditation, reading the books and listening to a lot of very encouraging and healing recordings of my teachers, mentors, and peers is a large part of my healing journey now.

I am writing and keeping my day to day schedule of activities. Making progress in all areas of my life and getting stronger every day. More accepting of others. Praying to God and calling on the constantly available assistance of God's angels.

So grateful to be alive and able to share my journey!

May you be blessed and know it.

Cassendre


Cassendre Xavier is a Haitian-Chinese-American artist, musician, author, actress, and award-winning community cultural arts organizer whose mission in life is to share joy, inspiration, and sensuality through the creative and healing arts. Coining the term *"renaissance negresse" in 2002, and also working under the names "Amethyste Rah" (spirituality and guided meditations http://stores.lulu.com/cassEndrE) and "Amrita Waterfalls" (sexuality and erotica) Xavier is the founder and director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women’s Arts Festival (Est. 2003 www.BWAFphilly.org) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002 www.WomensWritingSeries.org). Xavier has been an imperfectly practicing raw vegan since 2005 and is author of the print & ebook Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: a Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook & Journal (ARtivist Publications 2009). On September 19, 2011, she celebrated her first year as an ordained interfaith minister. Visit http://cassEndrExavier.com.


*"Negresse, Negre: In the French- and Spanish-speaking Caribbean Islands, these words often have a connotation of affection, entirely non-racial in meaning. `Ma petite negresse, mon negre, are equivalent to `My dear, my darling, my sweet.'" (From Masters of the Dew, a contemporary classic novel by the Haitian author Jacques Roumain, translated by Langston Hughes and Mercer Cook.)


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Sunday, October 2, 2011

Diary of a renaissance negresse - 02 Oct 2011

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Day 4 of water fast to heal food addiction with spirituality and the raw vegan diet. Lost 10lbs in 4 days. Miracles are already happening. The plan is to detox, get really really dependent on God, and engage all the support systems I've been researching, collecting, and using, from support groups, potlucks, eating with friends, and writing.

Will be very happy to repair my laptop, although going to the library daily and for very limited amounts of time encourages me to publish every day and be concise in my posts.

Have been writing so much, it's amazing. Focusing on making it useful to self and others. Grateful beyond measure.

Every day I pray and breathe and relax and tell myself to calm down and not freak out about anything. One moment at a time...to serenity.

Drinking my food is fine. It's the eventual chewing and learning of moderation that scares and usually tosses me into the inferno of active overeating and out of control eating again. But I remind myself that all is well and I don't have to think about anything but the next 5 minutes and all the love and power available at my disposal of mere thought, acceptance, surrender, and community.

Highlight: I weigh 203. I started at 238.
Friday people I know from the early 2000s said I've lost a lot of weight. I didn't think so, but then I saw my journal from 2009 and I weighed 230 then. This means that even thought I have 60lbs to lost, I can honor and see that I did lose 30lb in the last few years.

Again - grateful beyond measure.

Sorry for any typos. No time to proof :-)

Enjoy your week and see you tomorrow if I stay on my plan and I will ;-)

Blessings abounding in thyself,

Cassendre



Cassendre Xavier is a Haitian-Chinese-American artist, musician, author, actress, and award-winning community cultural arts organizer whose mission in life is to share joy, inspiration, and sensuality through the creative and healing arts. Coining the term *"renaissance negresse" in 2002, and also working under the names "Amethyste Rah" (spirituality and guided meditations http://stores.lulu.com/cassEndrE) and "Amrita Waterfalls" (sexuality and erotica) Xavier is the founder and director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women’s Arts Festival (Est. 2003 www.BWAFphilly.org) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002 www.WomensWritingSeries.org). Xavier has been an imperfectly practicing raw vegan since 2005 and is author of the print & ebook Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: a Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook & Journal (ARtivist Publications 2009). On September 19, 2011, she celebrated her first year as an ordained interfaith minister. Visit http://cassEndrExavier.com.


*"Negresse, Negre: In the French- and Spanish-speaking Caribbean Islands, these words often have a connotation of affection, entirely non-racial in meaning. `Ma petite negresse, mon negre, are equivalent to `My dear, my darling, my sweet.'" (From Masters of the Dew, a contemporary classic novel by the Haitian author Jacques Roumain, translated by Langston Hughes and Mercer Cook.)


Copyright © 2011 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. Permission is granted to reprint this article, in part, or in whole, only with the inclusion of the author bio, copyright credit, and contact URL http://cassEndrExavier.com.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Diary of a renaissance negresse - 01 Oct 2011

Saturday, October 1, 2011

A good day starts with a smile knowing that rent will be paid! Ran lots of errands today - totally on schedule. Amazing. I write I want to be at the post office at 1:50pm and I arrive at the post office exactly at 1:50pm. You'd think because scheduling my days works so well for me that I'd have been doing it since I discovered that benefit years ago and would still do it everyday. Only increasing self-care has made this a more regular habit for me. And writing this blog, which I just started three days ago but has been helping me a lot.
I am so affected by what I write - it's so easy to co-create with the universe what I want when I write things down. That's why I started a novel for myself a couple of months ago. It has no form, and it changes all the time in style. It's probably terrible, but I don't care, because I'm writing it for myself. I'm writing the dreams I've been wanting to womanifest, and I'm writing a world I want see and live in. I'm writing my life. That's all that matters. I want to see if it works.
I've noticed that some novelists write a beautiful fictional story, probably choosing a heroine they identify with. They give this imagined creature all their dreams and make them come true. Then, a few years after the publication of the novel, many of these things have occurred in the novelist's "actual" life.
One of the featured artist's of Philadelphia's 8th Annual Black Women's Arts Festival (http://BWAFphilly.org), Kendra, whose band is "Vie Boheme" said our dreams are just like our waking life. There is no separation or difference. I love that idea. Grace Jones said "Whatever I dream, I want to do." And she does it. Why not?
So that's what I've been doing - blending the line between my dreams and my waking life. I was very inspired by that talk I had with Kendra.

What are your dreams? Are you writing them down? Because, that's a huge part of making them happen! Here - let me help you :-)


My Dreams Are To:

1)_____________________________________________________

2)_____________________________________________________

3)_____________________________________________________

4)_____________________________________________________

5)_____________________________________________________



(I stopped at 5 because that's the number of change, according to general numerology. You can continue to 8, which is the number of prosperity :-)



What can you start doing right now, and every day, to begin blending the fake/so-called "line" between your night dreams, your day dreams, and your so-called "actual" "waking life"?


I Could:

1)_____________________________________________________

2)_____________________________________________________

3)_____________________________________________________

4)_____________________________________________________

5)_____________________________________________________


Helpful Hint: Get yourself a journal that you keep your spiritual daily writings and/or dreams and goals in. Or get several for several different purposes. But if having just one means you'll write every day, no matter how little, and no matter for what purpose, start there. You be as simple in your choice as a single-subject notebook, all the way up to a very fancy journal. It's better if it's lightweight and easily portable.

I myself have many different notebooks for different purposes. I have many single-subject notebooks for my various works in progress and journals, then I have a small but thick fancy leather one I write other people's quotes in, and I have my one and only "Dreamer's Journal" by Paula White (http://PaulaWhite.org) which I saw in one of her newsletters or mailings and ordered for dirt-ass cheap at Amazon! I highly recommend it regardless of your spiritual or religious faith, just because it's highly motivating, and you can always enjoy what you put into it rather than read every page of the quotes, etc. Because she is a Christian minister, it does include a passage of biblical scripture on every page, but what's perhaps even more valuable - at least to me, is that every other page also has an original, highly motivating quote by Paula herself. Check it ooot!


May sunshine have its way with you today and every day.
Make the art and be happy.

Cassendre



Cassendre Xavier is a Haitian-Chinese-American artist, musician, author, actress, and award-winning community cultural arts organizer whose mission in life is to share joy, inspiration, and sensuality through the creative and healing arts. Coining the term *"renaissance negresse" in 2002, and also working under the names "Amethyste Rah" (spirituality and guided meditations http://stores.lulu.com/cassEndrE) and "Amrita Waterfalls" (sexuality and erotica) Xavier is the founder and director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women’s Arts Festival (Est. 2003 www.BWAFphilly.org) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002 www.WomensWritingSeries.org). Xavier has been an imperfectly practicing raw vegan since 2005 and is author of the print & ebook Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: a Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook & Journal (ARtivist Publications 2009). On September 19, 2011, she celebrated her first year as an ordained interfaith minister. Visit http://cassEndrExavier.com.


*"Negresse, Negre: In the French- and Spanish-speaking Caribbean Islands, these words often have a connotation of affection, entirely non-racial in meaning. `Ma petite negresse, mon negre, are equivalent to `My dear, my darling, my sweet.'" (From Masters of the Dew, a contemporary classic novel by the Haitian author Jacques Roumain, translated by Langston Hughes and Mercer Cook.)


Copyright © 2011 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. Permission is granted to reprint this article, in part, or in whole, only with the inclusion of the author bio, copyright credit, and contact URL http://cassEndrExavier.com.

Friday, September 30, 2011

Diary of a renaissance negresse - 30 Sept 2011

Friday, September 30, 2011

Hello, dear reader!

Happy "Ask a Stupid Question Day" and "Hug a Vegetarian Day"! (Real, Wacky Holidays courtesy of http://brownielocks.com)

I am $39 away from making my rent, whoo-hoo!!! SOOO happy and relieved. It also feels sooo good to have taken a step towards my goal of finding a good job, rather than just taking notes and networking with folks about leads. I went to Careerlink yesterday and made an appointment for an orientation. My friend S. said they "hooked him up" which his current job, which is how I met him recently. I walked up to the kiosk of the internet company he works for and asked if they were hiring. Somehow (he saw my guitar case) we ended up talking about music (he's a musician, too, and has his own indie record label), and flirting (because that's just how we do ;-) and I went to one of the two open mics that he hosts, where I kicked ASS and sold not a single CD but he did give me twenty bucks so all was not lost.I also met some really nice folks there. But I was pissed and bitter as hell. Where else does one work for free?
Anyhoo, this ain't sposed to be "bitterfest" :-)
Anyway, the joy is improving and expanding.
For the last couple of days I've been thinking about my stationery I used to make for fun and profit. Then today my friend S. in Alburque, who had ordered them before, asked if I had any more of my self-mailing cardstock letters. So, now I'll be making 12 for her to order. Funny thing, that, because my friend M, who had also ordered them before, said he used them only for himself, right? So I ask S. how she uses them - she writes them to HERSELF every year for Rosh Hashannah! My friend M is also Jewish, so I sent him a copy of that text message. Longstoryshort, this bitch is getting her groove back, baby! (Never let it be said.)

So where am I, you ask? I'm at yet another public library, because on Fridays, they're all closed at 5pm or earlier, and my illustrious busking occurrifies (aka "occurriates" from 3-6pm. Since I'm committed to trying out this here new daily blog thing, it became apparent, I'd have to gets my writing and posting needs met in hours before my busking shift.

So, all for now. As much as I'd love to sit and jibber jabber with you good people all day, I've got lots of nifty newsletters of some of my favorite artists and writers, and other documents to print at 7 cents a page, rather than the astronomical quarter of a dollar that the Free Library charges. Why, the noive :-)

Quick facts:
Laptop crashed on July 31st, hence my using other equipment til mine is repaired.
I'm on the 2nd day of a water fast.
I'm very grateful for all the wonderful things in my life, including you, fine reader!


In art and community,

Cassendre



Cassendre Xavier is a musician, author, and community cultural arts organizer whose mission in life is to share joy, inspiration, and sensuality through the creative and healing arts. She is the founder and director of the Black Women’s Arts Festival, and has been an imperfectly practicing raw vegan since 2005. On September 19, 2011, Cassendre celebrated her first year as an ordained interfaith minister. Visit http://cassEndrExavier.com.



Copyright © 2011 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. Permission is granted to reprint this article, in part, or in whole, only with the inclusion of the author bio, copyright credit, and contact URL http://cassEndrExavier.com.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Diary of a renaissance negresse - 29 Sept 2011

Thursday, September 29, 2011

I don't know what I'm doing here. I thought I was supposed to start writing and posting a daily blog, as my technical supplies allow. But I'm stuck now. What to say?

There was a time, years ago that I wanted to be like Anais Nin - write diaries and publish them. That was my dream for such a long time. Then things changed and now it seems I want that again, only I haven't the patience to save them and then try to publish them.

As a writer, I'm hurt when I don't write enough. And even though I keep a handwritten diary at home, I feel my blog needs more use. So I'm sharing my journey.

Today I ran into a woman who is a creative artist trying to maintain a family of 4 (herself, her partner, and their 2 young children), and a full-time day job (which, thankfully is arts-related). As I spoke of my new desire for a day job myself, and my path over the years of being a full-time book clerk to a full-time multi-media artist, back to wanting a day job, I was amazed at how rapt she was by my story. I was talking so long I felt self-conscious. I actually said, "I'm talking too much" and she said, "No! This is very interesting to me - I'm going through the same thing!"

So, here I write. For anyone out there who is a writer, artist, musician, painter, sculptor, actor/actress, mother, father, guardian, foster parent. Working full time at a job that doesn't directly support your creative passions and talents.

One thing I realized recently is that our careers sometimes go in waves. Don't feel bad if from time to time you need to take on a day job.
I used to think it was a sign of failing that I wasn't making enough from my music, writing, workshops, etc. I felt ashamed to be broke so often and didn't want to think about "giving up" to have a day job.

Then, I remembered the times that I was gainfully employed outside of the arts. It was so nice to have that regular check that would pay my rent and other expenses. It was so nice to have hundreds of dollars here and there to put into getting CDs made, or going to Staples to make chapbooks and stationery and nifty stickers and postcards, etc. That was great! I had money to buy nice outfits and to generally be more relaxed as an artist and as a persun.

Now, I remember that. I also remember there were many times after a few years that I suffered greatly from the desire to not be in a bookstore all day. It was time to spread my artist wings. So I did. And after a few years of trial and error, I eventually became gainfully full-time self-employed as a renaissance negresse. NO day job!

But the pendulum has swung again. I am seeking employment and I'm happy about that! I expect that my life as an artist will improve once I'm not struggling so much to pay my basic living expenses and can once again buy all the equipment and services I need to make the art that brings my life and soul so much joy and helps me put a little more love out in the world.

It is a great privilege to share this with you. If you can relate or want to share, please feel free to post or share this.

Hang in there, stay creative, and don't ever lose faith in your ability to succeed! Life is worth living, and there's no such thing as the perfect way to do it. Just enjoy every single moment and breath. Know you are doing the best you can and take time every day to note your progress. You are not who you were 5 or 10 years ago and 5 or 10 years from now you and your creative portfolio will be even more kick-ass!

Love yourself,

Cassendre


Cassendre Xavier is a musician, author, and community cultural arts
organizer whose mission in life is to share joy, inspiration, and
sensuality through the creative and healing arts. She is the founder
and director of the Black Women’s Arts Festival, and has been an
imperfectly practicing raw vegan since 2005. On September 19, 2011,
Cassendre celebrated her first year as an ordained interfaith
minister. Visit http://cassEndrExavier.com.

Copyright © 2011 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. Permission
is granted to reprint this article, in part, or in whole, only with
the inclusion of the author bio, copyright credit, and contact URL
http://cassEndrExavier.com.

Friday, July 8, 2011

ME ME ME! CX Museletter “Celebrating Abundance” ediccione

Me! Me! Me! A Cassendre Xavier Museletter
The “Celebrating Abundance” Ediccione, if you will. (As it were.)

Friday, July 8, 2011

Dear friends,

How are you? I am well and I trust you are well also!
Thank you so much for your support of my art/work, and therefore, life, whether via financial support, prayers, well wishes, or visualizations of me as happy and successful.
I apologize for having been so focused on my lack when I wrote last time. I’m glad I did it, and that I expressed myself authentically, but doing so actually made things worse a little bit, in a way! Some folks started avoiding me, because of the vibe of “suffering” I had put out there. I think it made some people feel bad.
In the book Creating Money: Attracting Abundance by Sanaya Roman & Duane Packer (http://orindaben.com), they list qualities that attract and qualities that repel money, or abundance. One of the qualities that attracts is “Giving to people’s prosperity” and one that repels is “Giving to people’s need”. I understand that now. This doesn’t mean that one oughtn’t help when someone is asking for it, it means to affirm abundance, and to focus on this, rather than on lack. (This information is also in the older edition of Creating Money: Keys to Abundance, available for Dirt Ass Cheap at http://amazon.com).
Not to get all “scripture-y”, but in Matthew 25:29 Jesus Christ says, “For to everyone who has, more will be given, and he will have abundance; but from him who does not have, even what he has will be taken away.” (NKJV). I read that a few days ago and so, absolutely, totally got it! It really resonated with me. Doesn’t it seem to you that folks who are usually doing well are usually doing well, and those who are usually complaining always have “material”, if you will? (As it were.)
Energy is energy, and money is energy. You are energy, I am energy, it’s all energy. And energy attracts like energy. An object in motion stays in motion. Do you want your energy to be flowing in the lane of lack, or in that of abundance? Once I realized that, I became more determined to be serious about celebrating my abundance, of which I have a lot. Everything we think is affirmed by the universe. Everything we focus on and say magnetizes things that are like it. This affirms our beliefs. The good news is we get to choose where we place our focus. We can choose to start ignoring negative thoughts and feelings, and replacing them with the positive. Think and do what makes you feel good! Believe the best is yet to come for you!
But getting back to the aftereffects of my most recent museletter, the one called “Gifts of Suffering”...
I also asked the angels to give me more clarity to see what I am doing that’s not serving me and how I can, with their help, make some changes.
One thing is I’m going about fundraising the wrong way. You, my fans, and my friends, and sometimes both, are not my Source. And you’re not my livelihood. It wasn’t just Divine Guidance that gave me this little lesson. It was numbers. Pure and simple math. .
Of all the outlets I sent my fundraising plea last month, I yielded the record-shattering amount of $98. Three folks sent money, and one made a purchase. All were close friends of mine. I didn’t get the windfall of CD Baby or Lulu orders I expected from a high and random number of fans from anear and afar.
Observing the flow of energy is something that comes very easily to me and that I am grateful to be able to do very well and often. I looked at other places where there is a good flow of energy for me – and that is in two places: Grants, and CD sales at concerts.
So, having made that observation, I am focusing on those two things.
In that line, I’ve been researching grants to apply for, feeling very, very good about them, for two reasons: One: I have good chemistry with institutions that have lots of money :-) They tend to like to give it to me, and I’m very happy to be there to assist them with that. But I do have to apply. Therein’s the rub as we say in the business.
Regarding the CDs, I had a realization recently: I am going back to jewel cases complete with picture and liner notes that I wrote and drew myself.
Because I was such in scarcity-thinking mode, for the last several months I had gone to paperless slimline cases. My reasoning was two-fold, one: they were 75% less expensive for me to produce. And secondly: I figured folks were so into just making MP3s out of CDs and playing them on their portable digital listening devices, that they wouldn’t miss the “album art” as it were (if you will). But I’ve noticed that I’ve had way less repeat sales than I’m used to having. And I’m pretty sure it’s because folk aren’t as excited about just a CD in a skinny case – no lyrics, no picture of my lovely face :-)
I had a guy a couple of weeks ago who was passing through when I was busking, and he purchased a CD, and insisted on taking my display copy which has my photo on it. Because he was an older gentleman, pretty cocky, and also from out of town, not likely to see me again anytime soon, I relinquished the copy to him.
I was thinking a couple of days ago, this: I enjoy making liner notes. I love drawing the artwork on them. It’s my holding back of my joy, and *cutting corners from a space of scarcity and lack that reduced my sales, not the quality of my music or performing. (*By the way “Doing your best” is on the list of qualities that attract money, while “Cutting corners” is its opposite.)
We are supposed to be happy. We are supposed to enjoy ourselves in life. That’s why certain things feel good to us, because we’re supposed to do them.
I was thinking yesterday about how I was when I was just starting out as an artist. I was really happy, really free, and really confident in making my CDs. I got into the album art, I enjoyed making the lyrics sheet, I was like a kid playing in the sandbox, not wanting to come in the house for dinner. Just that happy.
I asked myself why I wasn’t happy like that anymore. When had it become just numbers and bitterness and jadedness about the lack of online sales and concert turn-out?
Why was I so sure that following my bliss would indeed yield (eventually) high numbers for me? Why was I so comfortable in that knowing – and completely without doubt or any sense of lack?
It was because I had the physical comfort and stability of gainful employment. I was always comfortably employed full-time at one of a series of bookstores that would be the bulk of my career in retail in Philadelphia.
Because I had plenty of money coming in (I wasn’t rich, but being an Aquarian with a penchant for trash picked and thrift store bought furniture and milk crate everything, I didn’t need much to be happy and comfortable), so I not only easily paid my living expenses, I also had plenty left over to make CDs and go around playing places for fun.
I used to think it was because I was younger that I had more folks coming out to my shows back then. That’s a part of it, I’m sure. But I’m aware that the major thing is energy: I’m out there with an energy of take and not give. And as I’ve learned from busking, which is one of the very best ways to learn the power of the law of attraction, an energy of take repels, while an energy of give attracts. Back then I was excited to perform. I was new to the game. There were coffeehouses, and bookstores and bars and community centers and house parties, and folk venues and Unitarian churches (which were sometimes one and the same), and all sorts of opportunities and invitations to perform, and I enjoyed many of them, because I was new to it and I was living my long-held dream.
If I only made twenty bucks at a gig, I didn’t care, because I had a paycheck. Everything else was extra. Well, that was then. Years went by and I started to feel bad. I started to literally suffer mental anguish (in the form of severe depression) because I wasn’t born to be a bookstore clerk my whole life. I started wanting to become a full time multi-media artist, a performing and recording singer-songwriter-musician and multi-genre publishing author who also acted and did visual arts on occasion. Then I started working towards that. Eventually, I succeeded, but not with financial success or stability, yet. So then, the goal became to be a gainfully and comfortably employed multi-media artist. I’d have spots of windfalls and comforts here and there (Like the $15,000 Leeway Transformation Award I received in 2005, and getting paid upwards of $300, $650, and $750 to perform at higher learning institutions).
The 1990s for me were about me developing a strong desire to become an active, multi-media artist. That’s when I was working at bookstores full time and performing and getting published “on the side” or “in my free time”. The early 2000s were when I became and started fully working as a multi-media artist. That’s when I started community cultural arts events, like the Women’s Writing & Spoken Word Series (http://WomensWritingSeries.org - Click to read and see pretty pictures about the next event on July 20, featuring Jeanine Hoffman, Angel Rollins, and myself as musical host!) and the Black Women’s Arts Festival (http://BWAFphilly.org - Click to read about the 8th Annual BWAF, happening July 27 – 31 at 3 different venues!). I released several albums of music described as “a cross between Tracy Chapman, Sade and Enya” (Steven M. Wilson, Borders Books) http://tinyurl.com/CXCDBaby. I also was published in various anthologies and periodicals (
http://ARTivistPublications.homestead.com, or http://cassEndrExavier.com, click “Writing”) and produced and performed in a 4-cast member play (including theatre artist and spiritual teacher O, cellist/vocalist/lyricist/composer/former BWAF Creative Director Monica McIntyre, and poet Samantha Barrow) for 3 days of the Philadelphia Fringe Festival. But those years were more full of financial famine than of feast, although the creative output was tremendous, inspiring me to coin the term “renaissance negresse” to define myself as an artist most succinctly and clearly.
The next few years are about my balancing my creative output with my financial abundance.
I had begun to rest on my laurels, expecting certain rewards because of my previous years of experience in the arts. But now I have relinquished all of that, because it created an attitude of bitterness that isn’t pretty at all!
I am ready to work for what I want again. I have discipline. I am ready to pay the dues I thought I had already paid. I now know there are new dues all the time, because the dream is always changing and growing. I don’t want for myself alone anymore. I have a family to think of – and by family I mean the initiatives that I’ve created. I want to them to last and grow, and do so without me. So I must do whatever it takes to start getting smart about my business as an ARTrepreneur.
The Black Women’s Arts Festival is very important. It deserves to have someone running it who is well taken care of and able to do good work in a comfortable, relaxed way.
So, wish me luck as I embark upon this new adventure!

I intend to remain disciplined in my intention and focus on my abundance from now on. And I am grateful for the lesson that your response, or lack thereof (unless you went to iTunes and ordered a bunch of 99 cent songs that I won’t know about until I get my royalties a few weeks from now!) taught me: You are not my Source of abundance. Spirit is my Source. God/The Most High/the All that Is/Goddess, etc. And the way to be is joyful. I am back to following my bliss. I get it. And I thank you!

Thank you for your kind attention, as always, and I wish you the very best.


In art and community, and ABUNDANCE,


Cassendre Xavier
renaissance negresse & ARTrepreneur
http://cassEndrExavier.com



Number of times the word “ass” was used in this ediccione, if you will. (As it were.): 1 (Maybe I’ll do better next time :-)

© Copyright 2011 by Cassendre Xavier. All rightzen reservenitzken.
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Sunday, June 12, 2011

6/20 Nikki Powerhouse & Laurie Pollack – Women’s Writing & Spoken Word Series

[Scroll down for feature bios! You're invited to attend in person or watch us from anywhere in the world!]

The Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series, a nurturing environment that celebrates women in the craft of multi-genre writing, presents Nikki Powerhouse & Laurie Pollack!

Monday, June 20, 2011
7pm-9pm, $5 Admission
Moonstone Arts Center
110A S. 13th St (at Sansom)
Philadelphia, PA

Hosted with live music by Cassendre Xavier!

Always includes a Mixed-Gender Open Mic!

Streams LIVE at www.moonstoneartscenter.org, click on the Watch Live button.

Your contribution of $5 or more helps to support the featured readers, the Series, and Moonstone. (No one turned away.)

ABOUT NIKKI POWERHOUSE
Nikki Powerhouse is a native of Philadelphia, PA soil. An actress, playwright, poet, nude figure model and freedom dancer are many of her artistic expressions. She considers herself “commissioned by the ancestors” and is a channel for many characters, ranging from small child to elders, which she plays starkly and convincingly. Nikki began her extensive theater training at the Philadelphia Creative Performing Arts High School, and continued her theater passion at Black Nexxus, Theatre for New Generation, and many theater classes in New York City. Her New York City stage credits includes: Notice Me presented in NYC Fringe Festival, Sex, God, and Heels, Queen Mary of Scotland and Khepera. In Philadelphia she has trained with The New Freedom Theater, and currently in her second year at Community College of Philadelphia and will finish her BFA at Temple University School of Theater Communications. Philadelphia stage credits includes: her one-woman show Fantasy is an Addiction (2005 Philly Fringe Festival), Black Women’s Arts Festival, lead role in Antigone, Seven Guitars, Fences, and Merry Wives of Windsor. Ms. Powerhouse’s flexibility leaves her audiences captivated by each every performance giving true mean to the name: Powerhouse! Contact: NikkiPowerhouse(at)yahoo.com

ABOUT LAURIE POLLACK
Laurie Pollack believes that by creating, we honor, and connect to, the Source of inspiration and creative “fire” and create a more peaceful, gentler world. She honors Brighid, goddess of creativity and healing. She has self-published one book, “Peace Walk”, and is working on a new book, “Musings”, expected to be self-published in 2012. She is the facilitator of The Blank Canvas: a monthly creativity circle/gathering that meets in Delaware County to do creative “stuff” together. She walks for peace every year in Nevada with Nevada Desert Experience and maintains the website for the Delaware County Peace Center. Laurie has recently branched out into collage and is experimenting with several forms of visual arts. She is in love with color in all its forms.
In her “day” job she is a computer programmer for a health related company. Writing and art feed her “right brain” after a day of precise report writing. She lives with her life partner of 16 years, Mary, and two carnivorous cats, Maggie and Kyra, who generously allow her to be vegetarian while under their roof. Contact: webpoet1(at)aol.com

Founded in 2002 by Cassendre Xavier, the Women’s Writing & Spoken Word Series is a nurturing environment that celebrates women in the craft of multi-genre writing. For submissions and other information, please visit www.WomensWritingSeries.org

[To see author pics, visit http://tinyurl.com/WWSWS or visit www.MoonstoneArtsCenter.org and click “Calendar” June 20]

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

ME! ME! ME! CX Museletter “Gifts of Suffering” ediccione

ME! ME! ME! The Cassendre Xavier Museletter

The “Gifts of Suffering” ediccione, as it were. (If you will.)

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

A) GREETINGS
1) GIFTS OF SUFFERING
2) ORDER STUFF! SEND DONATIONS! PLEASE! THANKS!
3) SOULMATE ATTRACTION FOR THE REST OF US
4) COME SEE ME IN CONCERT!
5) BLACK WOMEN’S ARTS FESTIVAL NEWSLETTER
Z) FAREWELL BLESSING


A) GREETINGS
Hi, there, friends! I am very happy once again to be sharing my life with you via this writing. It is my hope that those of you who are on a similar path of art-making as life-living (okay, that was a strange turn of phrasing, but, hey, it’s late and I’m a quirky one anyway!), that this will help you somehow. If not, simply delete and move along, folks – there’s nothing to see here!
My life is all about gratitude these days. Ever since I read in a book by renowned psychic Linda Georgian that she gives thanks to her migraine headaches as they are happening, and the result is they are lessened and gone sooner, I have been on a gratitude mission even more than usual.
I am grateful for my first active library card in many years. I am addicted to the Mr. Monk novels by Lee Goldberg based on the popular TV series, and as soon as I’m done those, I intend to attack with equal vigor the Diagnosis Murder novels he writes, too. I am grateful for every cool summer day between heat waves, for the friendly dogs in my neighborhood, for the hay fever allergy-healing benefits of local honey made by my friendly neighborhood Amish-operated farmer’s market, I’m even grateful for the occasionally and partially effective drugstore purchases which attempt to bring me ease from the same ailment. I’m grateful for air conditioning and for www.FamilyRadio.com for keeping me company in the wee hours of the day and helping me aim my thoughts on high things, even though I’m not too keen on all their teachings, in particular the prophecies of a certain teacher there whose name needn’t be mentioned constantly, in my opinion.
I’m grateful for lots and lots of things, but time and space are a wastin’...
Most of all I’m grateful right now for your two eyes (at least I hope you have two, and if you don’t, I hope you’re grateful for what you do have and can see with)!

1) GIFTS OF SUFFERING
In my lifelong mission to turn my experiences into art that you, my readers and listeners, can use, part of my job as a performing singer songwriter has become highly challenging in recent weeks and this has caused some, um, “discomfort”, financial and otherwise, on my part. I wrote an essay about it, which will soon be published hither and yon, to, and fro. I thought you might like to read it here:

Gifts of Suffering by Cassendre Xavier

Nationally recognized personal growth coach, spiritual teacher, and New York Times bestselling author Iyanla Vanzant was once a regular feature of the television show “Starting Over”. I remember once watching when she was talking to a Starting Over household and cast member about how to deal with her past. The woman had been abused in her youth and seemed to have a difficult time embracing a more positive present and creating a better future for herself.
Iyanla coached her to talk about her abuse a little bit. Then, she looked deeply into the woman’s eyes, held her hands, and with great compassion said, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry those terrible things happened to you. Is that what you want to hear?” The woman’s face quickly went from contorted in sadness and wet tears to straight, plain, and incredulous. She was listening, and maybe a little startled and embarrassed.

To read more, please visit http://tinyurl.com/CXGOS2011.


2) ORDER STUFF! SEND DONATIONS! PLEASE! THANKS!
Folks, I need your help to get through some particularly challenging times I’ve been having financially in recent weeks. I realize I need to be that blatant and bold (aka “clear and direct”) about asking for help, because that’s what strong people do – ask for help when they need it.
It’s not enough to just affirm my abundance as I do by donating regularly to others.
I donate to and share my resources with folks for three reasons: a) Out of gratitude for the monies I am regularly receiving in my daily performing work from folks who tip my services and buy CDs at performances and to keep the flow going. As I receive, so I also give to receive again, and so on... b) They ask. I get letters, Facebook posts, and more requesting donations from various sources for various reasons. The ones that get my quickest response are from actual realtime associates who happen to be in my Facebook network. For instance, one posted an urgent request for $2. Even though I was struggling myself and had only about $6 in my Paypal account, I right away, minutes after seeing her post, went to Paypal and sent $2 to her. I’ve also given much more here and there, and again, I do it because I receive so much from the universe, of which you are a very vital and appreciated part! c) We are all one. Because I recognize that, and because I receive, I also give, because it’s math. What goes up must come down, and what comes in must go out, or else it will be stagnant, and who wants that? Not me!
Anyway, it occurred to me that one of the reasons I’m having a hard time these days is because I haven’t been doing what my contemporaries do on a regular basis – hittin’ ya up for cash!
I’m supposed to remind you that I’m a full-time self-employed artist and that absolutely every single sale of my CDs, downloads, books, e-books, etc. goes directly to my day to day living costs.
It’s my job to make what I do so irresistible to you that you feel compelled to support my art/work, and therefore life, so I’m working on that.
Because right now I don’t have concert tickets to some cool ass venue, or a brand new CD (because I need to raise production costs first – oy vey!) I must do what I can.
I’ve been paying the bills by performing and selling CDs and chapbooks. I’ve also been receiving income from application/submission and ticket sales to events I produce. Needless to say these haven’t exactly been earth shatteringly high numbers, to say the least, but I am soooooo grateful that I have been able to do what I love (produce events, make art, write, publish my works, basically live a creative life and make a living from sharing my life experiences). Absolutely sooooo lucky and blessed!
It’s my job to make these things attractive to you, and it’s my honor to step up to the challenge.
For now, I am fully experiencing my feelings and putting them in writing, then sharing any lessons I’ve learned with my reading audience.
I intend to continue doing this over the next few weeks, and always include an order form and links of my available works for you to support or consider supporting, and forwarding to any of your writer friends.
I would so appreciate if you could either make a purchase every now and then or make a free will open donation to my Paypal account email address cxmusic(at)gmail.com. This is very simple to do. You just go to www.paypal.com, find the “Send Money” button, and send to: cxmusic(at)gmail.com (replace the “at” with @). Even if it’s just two bucks, trust me, it adds up and makes a difference.
I promise I will continue to be the best artist I can be, share my stories with others, and re-gift a portion of my own income to other performers and authors and artists doing similar work. As a former co-worker of mine used do say, “You know I love to do it!”

Ways you can financially support my art/work, and therefore, life:

CD Baby http://tinyurl.com/CXCDBaby
iTunes http://tinyurl.com/CXiTunes
Lulu http://tinyurl.com/CXatLulu
CX Direct http://cxdirect.eventbrite.com
CX Books & E-Books http://cxbooks.eventbrite.com
Paypal http://paypal.com “Send Money” to cxmusic(at)gmail.com (replace the “at” with “@)
Paper postal mail: Please send a US Postal Money Order payable to Cassendre Xavier, POB 30204, Philadelphia, PA 19103-8204


Lastly, I want to so, so, so, so, sooooo thank each and every one of you who regularly help me or have helped me in the past in various ways, financial and otherwise. I appreciate you all so very much. Yes, the tips and CD sales are paramount because my landlord and utility companies don’t accept smiles and hugs :-) but I also appreciate thoughts, prayers, well-wishes, blessings, visualizations, forwarding my emails to your friend(s), and even just your taking the time to read my work is a blessing which I appreciate. It is very often in my mind the time I watched Jill Scott being interviewed in a room of black women while she was getting her hair done. I was looking at her bright and smiling, talented face, and I knew, I just knew and could see and feel all the love and support that she had received not only from those women, but from the women who reared her and from her poetry community and her entire fan base and supporters in Philadelphia who held her up in their psychic arms. Whenever I am blessed in public by someone, I feel that same thing is happening to me, and that someday, people will say, “I used to see that girl playing in the subway.” You are one of those people and I thank you very, very much, not exactly in advance because it’s been happening for years and I have been witnessing the gradual effects of your well-wishes for me! Thanks, and right back atcha!


3) SOULMATE ATTRACTION FOR THE REST OF US

Soulmate Attraction for the Rest of Us by Cassendre Xavier

I’ve been really enjoying lately reading and listening to audio guided meditations of works about manifesting one’s ideal romantic partnership. The two best that I can recommend are the “Soulmate Secret” materials by Arielle Ford, which focus on “using the law of attraction to manifest the love of your life”, and “Attracting Your Soul Mate” a single guided meditation audio download by Sanaya Roman, who channels her spirit guide named Orin. In this single meditation, Orin teaches a powerful method to help you actually reach through space and time to communicate now with your ideal partner of the future. I find it a very peaceful meditation, and I sense that my communications are real and effective. (Complete audio course on “Attracting Your Soul Mate” also available.)
Arielle Ford has successfully used the law of attraction for decades to grow her business and develop a wonderful single life. When, in her 40s, she found herself still single, she decided to apply these laws to manifest the love of her life. Not long after that, at age 44 she met and married her husband of over 12 years, Brian Hilliard.

To continue reading the complete, unedited article and reader comments at Wisdom Magazine, visit http://tinyurl.com/CXsaftrou
To continue reading a very attractive edited version and reader comments at Inner Self Magazine, visit http://tinyurl.com/CXISsaftrou.


4) COME SEE ME IN CONCERT!
Thursday, June 16, 2011 7:00pm FREE! Elixr Coffee, 207 S. 15th St. (between Walnut & Locust) Philadelphia, PA 19102
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Monday, June 20, 2011 7pm-9pm $5
The Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series presents...
Laurie Pollack and Nikki Powerhouse
Hosted with live music by Cassendre Xavier
Includes Mixed-Gender Open Mic
Streams LIVE at www.MoonstoneArtsCenter.org! (Click "Watch Live")
Moonstone Arts Center, 110A S. 13th St. (at Sansom St.), Philadelphia, PA 19107, 215-735-9598
The Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002 at Robin's Bookstore) is a nurturing environment that celebrates women in the craft of multi-genre writing. For submissions information, our complete calendar, email list sign-up, and more, please visit http://www.WomensWritingSeries.org. SASE to: Women's Writing Series, PO Box 30204, Philadelphia, PA 19103-8204.

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Saturday, June 25, 2011 10:30am-12:30pm FREE
Lansdowne Farmer's Market
with David Falcone

Address and link coming soon!
Complete calendar at www.cassEndrExavier.com

5) BLACK WOMEN’S ARTS FESTIVAL NEWSLETTER
Some little girls are born wanting to make humyn babies. Others have a different destiny and later learn to call their projects their “children”. The latest update about my main offspring, if you will, was released just yesterday. (As it were.) Read it at http://bwafphilly.org/news.html


Z) FAREWELL BLESSING
If you’re in Philadelphia, may you daftly manage the coming heat wave this week. It’s about to get hot as ass up in here! But, seriously, folks...

May you constantly find yourself increasing in self-love, and compassion for all living beings.
May you learn to accept that all of life contains painful moments, and that these challenges are necessary and helpful; no one will ever be completely satisfied with all of life. This realization will bring peace and most joy.
May you step by step surround yourself with people who “get” you and love you exactly as you are right now, not when you’ve improved your body or become more “actualized” in your mind.
May you never give up seeking the love your deepest, most innocent self has always known you deserve.
May children and animals like and want to be around you.
May each day bring you closer to your dream life, more peace, and more smiles, more health, and always, big, real LOVE.


Thank you for your continued support of my art/work, and therefore, life. I appreciate YOU!

In art and community,

Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls)
renaissance negresse & ARTrepreneur
(musician/writer/visual artist/actress)
http://cassEndrExavier.com

Founder & Director of Philadelphia’s 8th Annual Black Women’s Arts Festival
(Thurs July 28th thru Sun July 31st, 2011) Accepting year-round submissions at http://BWAFphilly.org

Founder & Director of the Women’s Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002)
Accepting year-round submissions at http://WomensWritingSeries.org


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Number of times the word “ass” was used: 2. (I’ll do better next time!)



Last call for financial support: If any of the contents of this was helpful or inspiring to you in any way, please place an order at any of the links below, or donate to Payapal (also below). Thank you so very much and see you soon, hopefully! Oh, and please tell your friends!
Ways you can financially support my art/work, and thefore, life:

CD Baby http://tinyurl.com/CXCDBaby
iTunes http://tinyurl.com/CXiTunes
Lulu http://tinyurl.com/CXatLulu
CX Direct http://cxdirect.eventbrite.com
CX Books & E-Books http://cxbooks.eventbrite.com
Paypal http://paypal.com “Send Money” to cxmusic(at)gmail.com (replace the “at” with “@)
Paper postal mail: Please send a US postal money order payable to:
Cassendre Xavier, POB 30204, Philadelphia, PA 19103-8204



Copyright (c) 2011 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. Permission to reprint is granted provided the passage’s title, author, copyright info, credit, and URL http://www.cassEndrExavier.com are included. Thank you for sharing responsibly!


“You needn’t have a perfect life to have a moment of true appreciation of your life, and having those feelings as often as possible will help make your life more perfect. So, take a moment every day to appreciate and feel really good about all you have.” ~Cassendre Xavier

“Strong people ask for help when they need it.” ~Cassendre Xavier


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Gifts of Suffering by Cassendre Xavier

Nationally recognized personal growth coach, spiritual teacher, and New York Times bestselling author Iyanla Vanzant was once a regular feature of the television show “Starting Over”. I remember once watching when she was talking to a Starting Over household and cast member about how to deal with her past. The woman had been abused in her youth and seemed to have a difficult time embracing a more positive present and creating a better future for herself.
Iyanla coached her to talk about her abuse a little bit. Then, she looked deeply into the woman’s eyes, held her hands, and with great compassion said, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry those terrible things happened to you. Is that what you want to hear?” The woman’s face quickly went from contorted in sadness and wet tears to straight, plain, and incredulous. She was listening, and maybe a little startled and embarrassed. “You have been waiting all this time for someone to tell you they’re sorry. You want people to acknowledge your pain. I’m doing that now. I’m sorry that happened to you. It’s terrible. But you must let it go and never speak of it again. Never speak of it again.” Well, that threw me for a loop, so I can imagine the woman hearing it was also surprised at this new information.
I started then taking Iyanla’s advice. I, too, started trying to forget about my painful abusive past, and not thinking about. Months and years later I even got into story making as a craft, and creating and recreating the kind of parents and childhood I would’ve liked to have had to become the person I wanted to be. It was very helpful, because in the doing, in the “making believe”, I also realized I actually did have some very good and pleasant things in my childhood and in my parents. I didn’t have to make it all up.
This work is very good to do – to let go of a painful past, and to stop reliving the stories and sadness we sometimes keep bringing up.
But there is something to being truthful about our present sorrows, too.
If in being so focused on “magickal living” and creating a reality based on our desired fantasies and affirmations we forget to sometimes talk about our struggles, we miss out on some important and even helpful experiences.
This happened to me recently when I started having a hard time at a job that had been for some months paying me quite well and meeting several of my basic needs.
I had been enjoying this work, which was a temporary job, and not working hard enough on creating more permanent, and appropriate work. I had also been spending most of my time speaking positively of my financial situation, even though things were usually much more dire than I spoke of, because of the spiritual work and studies I’d done that focused on positive affirmations and speaking “as if”. The books I’d been reading had said to speak of my life as I wanted it to be, and so I did, without lying, just being creative in my speaking. While this did work and I saw their benefits in my well-paying temporary job, I was also missing out on an opportunity to make progress in my permanent business and receive more donations and sales from my audience of fans and customers who often were reminded that my success was largely reliant on their support.
Because of circumstances that arose a few months into my temporary job bliss, I began experiencing difficulties, resistance, and other challenges in my work. Because of the way people around me were responding to how my work was being received by the majority of my customers, my work was beginning to be sabotaged. Now, going to work was no longer pleasant, and because of the sabotage, I was making a third of the income and a third of new customer growth.
The suffering I began experiencing at work was becoming too much for me to be able to creatively and positively speak about. I decided to drop all pretence and just admit to myself and to my audience that I was suffering. As soon as that decision was made, I had some experiences, which turned into lessons I would like to share in hopes that they may help you. Here’s what can happen when you can fully accept, experience, and share your suffering with others:

1) Physically, you may relax. Your shoulders may drop, and you may be able to feel all of your feelings about the circumstance you are in. You may realize then, that you were holding a lot of tension pretending everything was great, or even just okay.

2) You get to really look around and see that you deserve more. You may see that you were selling yourself short by settling for less than you deserve.

3) You can take the opportunity to express gratitude to everyone and everything, including those who were attempting to hurt you. In doing so, you may see things you didn’t see before and learn about yourself and your so-called enemies. Everything and everyone, even if they are hurting you, is a gift if you see at that way and make it one in your life.

4) You may see direct parallels in your present situation and past relationships that link to a possible past painful or traumatic experience. You may have the opportunity to examine what beliefs where created in your past and how you may have been replaying a traumatic experience by not demanding more for yourself. You may discover that you need to, and could heal your past pain by loving yourself more and by giving yourself new beliefs to replace the old.

5) In feeling the pain of your experience, you may use those moments seeking spiritual guidance to direct your next steps. Often, it is in our most challenging moments that the best questions and answers to our deepest life issues arise.

If we face our difficulties with grace, gratitude, and a willingness to honor all of our feelings, if we can combine occasional expressions of pain and sadness with our usual routine of focusing on the positive and speaking our most desired realities into being, we can live a more balanced, whole life, and manifest our dreams and best life ever.


Cassendre Xavier is an award-winning multi-media Haitian and Chinese-American artist. Her latest print and e-books are This is What a Millionaire Looks Like: Inspiring Essays (ARtivist Publications, 2011) Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: A Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook & Journal (ARtivist Publications, 2009) her latest CD/download of music (described by Borders Music’s Steven M. Wilson as “a cross between Tracy Chapman, Sade and Enya”) is Capable of Love (Serious Creature Music, 2009), and her latest guided meditation recordings Affirmations for Survivors: Self-Love, and Affirmations for Survivors: Spirituality (Amethyste Affirmations, 2007) feature the music of Thaddeus (Sanaya Roman www.orindaben.com). Visit www.cassEndrExavier.com for more information about Cassendre.



Copyright (c) 2011 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. Permission to reprint granted as long as "Gifts of Suffering by Cassendre Xavier" appears with the aforementioned copyright date, credit and website www.cassEndrExavier.com are included. Thank you for sharing responsibly!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Soulmate Attraction for the Rest of Us by Cassendre Xavier

I’ve been really enjoying lately reading and listening to audio guided meditations of works about manifesting one’s ideal romantic partnership. The two best that I can recommend are the “Soulmate Secret” materials by Arielle Ford, which focus on “using the law of attraction to manifest the love of your life”, and “Attracting Your Soul Mate” a single guided meditation audio download by Sanaya Roman, who channels her spirit guide named Orin. In this single meditation, Orin teaches a powerful method to help you actually reach through space and time to communicate now with your ideal partner of the future. I find it a very peaceful meditation, and I sense that my communications are real and effective. (Complete audio course on “Attracting Your Soul Mate” also available.)
Arielle Ford has successfully used the law of attraction for decades to grow her business and develop a wonderful single life. When, in her 40s, she found herself still single, she decided to apply these laws to manifest the love of her life. Not long after that, at age 44 she met and married her husband of over 12 years, Brian Hilliard. The Soulmate Secret teaches basic law of attraction principles, as well as her own unique point of view and gifts of insight from using Feng Shui to various “feelingizations” (her coined phrase) and wonderful advice and techniques for removing blocks, healing and reversing traumas that may have you repeating unhealthy patterns in your love relationships.
As I was studying and meditating on the Soulmate Secret materials, something began bugging me a little bit. I noticed I was having some resistance to the repeated mention of the “one true love” model. In all of Arielle’s anthologies (including her popular Hot Chocolate series, in the style of Chicken Soup for the Soul...) she has been wonderfully diverse in including stories from same-gender-loving folks. In the Soulmate Secret, Ford stresses that everyone, absolutely everyone, can have a wonderful love life and partner, if they believe they can. And that is the key, they need to believe it. Ford says that no matter what your age, build, or financial status, you can have the love of your life. Gay or straight, disabled or able-bodied, thin or fat, rich or poor, you can have the love of your life.
Reading that made me feel good as a late bloomer, and I started getting into the flow of the Soulmate Secret teachings. Where I started to get stuck was maybe about the 30th mention of having one partner for the rest of your life. At first, I took this resistance to mean I needed to expand my capacity for joy – that I hadn’t yet wrapped my mind around having a “healthy” relationship, and that this discomfort was a sign I needed to look at and change my mind, feelings, and expectations. But, when I explored this further, over several weeks, I realized something: I didn’t want what Arielle and many of her contributors wanted. Well, I wanted most things: a loving, caring partner who was self-caring and was also well caring of me, someone kind, with whom I felt safe, trusting, and cherished. I wanted those things. What I didn’t want was monogamy. I have been polyamorous my entire adult dating life. All of my relationships, with the exception of 6 short experimental months in one long-term relationship, have been open. And this opened a wide door of possibility and acceptance for me.
Yes, you absolutely can have what you want. But you have to be clear on it, decide it for yourself in your mind and in your heart, and you have to say it out loud and write it down and dwell on it and wear the energy of it, and live as if you have it and be it until you have it on the physical plane. You don’t just look at what everyone else is doing and ignore inner signs that those things may not be for your. Listen to your inner self and go where you’re led. Obey your yearnings, passions, and desires.
The Soulmate Secret gave a few examples of this: Arielle’s list of characteristics her ideal mate would have included gray hair. She had never been attracted to men with gray hair before, but something told her to write this down, and she did. Brian turned out to not only have gray hair, but it had turned gray in his 20s.
Another example of admitting to yourself and to your manifestation exercises was a woman who created a beautiful mandala of her ideal mate. Each color represented a different trait. At the very end of her exercise, she wanted to include that “he has a cute butt”. She immediately admonished herself for being what she called “shallow”, but spiritually felt compelled to continue, so she did add the “cute butt” color to her soulmate manifestation mandala. When her future soulmate walked away after their first, and excellent date, guess what she noticed? If you guessed, “That he had a cute butt?” you are correct!
I have a theory of attraction. I believe that when we want something, it is somewhere not too far from us (spiritually) wanting us, too. The reason Arielle thought to write “gray hair” was because Brian was not far away wanting a mate just like Arielle, and his call reached out to her and she felt it. She picked up the imprint of his signal and began to piece together the map they would travel to meet in the middle of.
Unlike Arielle who didn’t happen to have a gray-haired-guy fetish, I believe the woman whose guy had the cute butt had actually always had a thing for cute butts. But here’s what about that particular story really jumped out at me and confirmed for me the need for us to be true to our passionate selves, and honest about our specific desires: I don’t care about “cute” butts! I am not a butt person at all. In fact, I have always liked the opposite of “cute butts”. I like when baggy jeans hang on a guy and he’s completely flat back there. To me that is so manly and sexy! See? That’s why it was so important for Cute Butt Lady to speak her dream, because her dreamy Cute Butt Guy was out there for her – specifically for her, who would dig his “Cute Butt” and not me, because I couldn’t care less!
I love standing in line at street vendors’ carts and listen to people order their food. Everyone orders their food differently than the person behind them, and everyone is a serious and passionate about their food being prepared just right. That’s how it is in all of life. We all are wired to want exactly what we what, exactly how we want it, and it’s out there – we can have it!
Know what you like, be honest about it, and go for it, knowing that it is out there waiting for and reaching out to you. If you want to manifest not one but three ideal mates to either be involved with together or individually, go for it. They’re looking for you. If you want to be married to one person but travel the world part-time and have other lovers, go for it. If you want to have a lasting, trusting, safe relationship within the context of a kinky/BDSM relationship, go for it. If you want to have several commitment ceremonies of mixed spiritual traditions, a skyclad, Goddess-focused handfasting in the forest, or one completely atheist celebration in a Scottish castle, you can create that. The universe expands when we all live our dreams, and seek our deepest joys. As Arielle states, healthy, wonderful love isn’t just for some people but for everyone, and that includes those of us who have always been on the edge of the mass culture – lightworkers, LGBT, kinky, polyamorous, bohemian, artistic, spiritually eclectic rebels of society’s norms. We are worthy of the same kind of wonderful, lasting love accessible to everyone else, and we can make a choice to believe that and become it.




About the author: Cassendre Xavier is an award-winning, multi-media arts performer and organizer based in Philadelphia. She has released several recordings of original music described as “a cross between Tracy Chapman, Sade and Enya” (Steven M. Wilson, Borders Music), had her multi-genre writing published internationally, and is the founder and director of Philadelphia’s annual Black Women’s Arts Festival (est. 2003). Visit www.cassEndrExavier.com for more information.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

How to Love a Girl – a Cassendre Xavier Museletter

Tuesday, May 17, 2011



Greetings, folks!

Just wanted to remind you that I’ll be hosting (reading and performing live music at) the Women’s Writing & Spoken Word Series tomorrow, Wed, May 18, at Moonstone Arts Center, 110A South 13th St (at Sansom St), Philadelphia, 7pm. Featured readers will be Jesse White and Lee ScottLorde. $5 admission.

Jesse White is an Expressionistic painter, writer and altered book artist. Conveying emotion through themes of love, loss and spirit, her writing is deeply personal, honest and often raw. She finds creating to be both restorative and spiritual. Jesse teaches the process of cathartic art making through her organization, Pigeon Arts. A Leeway Foundation grant awardee, she has facilitated her workshops with the Trans community, teen writing groups, spiritual communities, youth survivors/witnesses of domestic violence and murder, adults with chronic illnesses, and the general public. Contact: Jesse(at)pigeon-arts.com


Lee ScottLorde says: “I am a Temple University bred performance poet who has been writing poetry for the last 13 years, and professionally performing for two. I write now for the same reasons I began: to inform, entertain, liberate, and give a voice that will destroy the silences that bind and render us invisible. Poetry is so many things; political, romantic, spiritual or religious, and therapeutic. For me, poetry is an extension of living, and time. In a poem, I have the honor of experiencing every moment again and again, be it pleasurable and joyous or hard and mournful, just as I, he, or she, felt in that moment. In a poem one can even write to change history. It’s makes tangible the statement “If I could I would…” because in poetry you and I can. However dreaming and speaking it is only the first step. We too must live out our words. Currently I am in the process of establishing Sweethearts For Charity, a nonprofit bakery, that will fund-raise to support organizations and causes that aid undeserved populations in Philadelphia and writing my first book of poetry, Lopsided Warrior: The Silent Battle of Motherhood.” Contact: Lee.ScottLorde(at)gmail.com

Hosted with live music by Cassendre Xavier! Always includes a Mixed-Gender Open Mic! Streams LIVE at www.moonstoneartscenter.org, click on the Watch Live button. Founded in 2002 by Cassendre Xavier, the Women’s Writing & Spoken Word Series is a nurturing environment that celebrates women in the craft of multi-genre writing. For submissions and other information, please visit www.WomensWritingSeries.org.

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Also,

Thursday, May 19, 2011 6:00pm FREE! I’ll be singing at Elixr Coffee, an acclaimed espresso joint in Center City. 207 S 15th St. (at Walnut), Philadelphia, PA 19102

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How to Love a Girl
[My friend Alisa Raymond sent me this. I asked if I could share it. She said yes, so I'm forwarding it to you all. Please feel free to share it, following the permissions info at the end of the article. Thank you and enjoy!]

How to Love a Girl Who Hates the Skin She’s In by Alisa Raymond

1. Tell her to stop apologizing for her body. tell her sorry's are serious things and she shouldn't go wasting them.

2. Tell her she's beautiful.she is unlikely to ever believe you but just hearing it will bring that crooked smile to her face.

3. Undress her when you're in bed together.she will fight you tooth and nail because she hates the body that she ended up with, let her know its not as bad as she makes it out to be, but don't ever lie and say its not bad at all, she'll resent you for that.

4. Kiss the soft, loose skin that remains where so many pounds used to be. don't stop when you feel her cringe or when she says "you don't have too" she's just exorcising her own ghost's that have been haunting her for years. Assure her that "you ain't afraid of no ghosts" and help her rid her house of them.

5. If you're serious about loving her,love all of her, unconditionally, from her barely there hair follicles to the tips of her always pedicured toes and everything in between. She may not look like the girl you always dreamed of laying next too but she has the heart and the everything else of the girl you want to wake up to everyday for the rest of your life, and keep in mind, dream girl will be old and grey one day and the one thing that drew you to her will have faded. Stick with the girl who has heart.The heart has staying power.

6. Understand when she insists on only making love when its dark. Don't ask that the lights be on, or candles be lit. Learn every inch of her body in the pitch black like braille, let the fire you start inside of her be all the light that you need.

7. Tell her you like her better without her wig. tell her it's because she's relaxed and more herself. tell her she's beautiful regardless but her comfortable and beautiful trumps any other way.

8. Tell her she has sexy collarbones or wrists.pick a piece of her that wasn't ruined by the surgery and pay extra attention to it. let her own these sexy parts of her like some people do their entire bodies. help her be proud of a small portion of the body she's ashamed of. make her understand that we're all made up of pieces, some bad some good, but either way we need them all for our puzzles to make any sense.

9. Let her know that when she constantly makes negative comments about her body that it hurts you too, that it feels like she is trying to convince you that she is too hideous to be loved and that your love no matter how great will never be good enough. tell her it feels like she is pushing you away, also tell her that the way she obsessively critiques and puts down every inch of her makes you think that she is doing the same to you. That she is silently judging all of your parts while she loudly presides over her own.

10. Hold her hand and keep her busy, because when she's bored she binges and binging inevitably leads to purging whether its an accident or not. There's a tornado of emotion inside this girl that no amount of food will quell,but she can't stop trying, she's a storm chaser. Rescue her from the fingers that mud slide down her throat, from her eyes that burn brush fires into her ruined skin, from her mind that makes her believe her body is a tragedy. Be her disaster relief.

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Thanks for your time and attention, everyone,

Cassendre Xavier
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"A cross between Tracy Chapman, Sade, and Enya" –Steven M. Wilson, Borders Music
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How to Love a Girl Who Hates the Skin She's In, by Alisa Raymond

[My friend Alisa Raymond sent me this. I asked if I could share it. She said yes, so I'm forwarding it to you all. Please feel free to share it, following the permissions info at the end of the article. Thank you and enjoy!]

My poetry mentor gave us a writing prompt to write instructions on how to love yourself.i wrote it this week and won my first slam with it last night i thought i would share it with you..

(for those of you who don't know 2 years ago I was 486 lbs. during that time i had an illness that caused me to lose most of my hair so i wear a wig.also because of the fact that i lost 312 lbs so rapidly my skin is very loose and looks terrible.i'm grateful for my health but the way my body turned out is a constant source of shame for me. i'm working on those feelings.this poem helped a lot. I started it in april but it was very emotionally draining so i put it on the back burner. I finished it today. it took so long because its pretty damn hard to write instructions on something you haven't yet figured out how to do yourself.)

How to Love a Girl Who Hates the Skin She’s In
by Alisa Raymond

1. tell her to stop apologizing for her body. tell her sorry's are serious things and she shouldn't go wasting them.

2. Tell her she's beautiful.she is unlikely to ever believe you but just hearing it will bring that crooked smile to her face.

3. Undress her when you're in bed together.she will fight you tooth and nail because she hates the body that she ended up with, let her know its not as bad as she makes it out to be, but don't ever lie and say its not bad at all, she'll resent you for that.

4. Kiss the soft, loose skin that remains where so many pounds used to be. don't stop when you feel her cringe or when she says "you don't have too" she's just exorcising her own ghost's that have been haunting her for years. Assure her that "you ain't afraid of no ghosts" and help her rid her house of them.

5. If you're serious about loving her,love all of her, unconditionally, from her barely there hair follicles to the tips of her always pedicured toes and everything in between. She may not look like the girl you always dreamed of laying next too but she has the heart and the everything else of the girl you want to wake up to everyday for the rest of your life, and keep in mind, dream girl will be old and grey one day and the one thing that drew you to her will have faded. Stick with the girl who has heart.The heart has staying power.

6. Understand when she insists on only making love when its dark. Don't ask that the lights be on, or candles be lit. Learn every inch of her body in the pitch black like braille, let the fire you start inside of her be all the light that you need.

7. Tell her you like her better without her wig. tell her it's because she's relaxed and more herself. tell her she's beautiful regardless but her comfortable and beautiful trumps any other way.

8. Tell her she has sexy collarbones or wrists.pick a piece of her that wasn't ruined by the surgery and pay extra attention to it. let her own these sexy parts of her like some people do their entire bodies. help her be proud of a small portion of the body she's ashamed of. make her understand that we're all made up of pieces, some bad some good, but either way we need them all for our puzzles to make any sense.

9. Let her know that when she constantly makes negative comments about her body that it hurts you too, that it feels like she is trying to convince you that she is too hideous to be loved and that your love no matter how great will never be good enough. tell her it feels like she is pushing you away, also tell her that the way she obsessively critiques and puts down every inch of her makes you think that she is doing the same to you. That she is silently judging all of your parts while she loudly presides over her own.

10. Hold her hand and keep her busy, because when she's bored she binges and binging inevitably leads to purging whether its an accident or not. There's a tornado of emotion inside this girl that no amount of food will quell,but she can't stop trying, she's a storm chaser. Rescue her from the fingers that mud slide down her throat, from her eyes that burn brush fires into her ruined skin, from her mind that makes her believe her body is a tragedy. Be her diaster relief.


Permission granted to reprint, as long as the content is not altered (grammatical/spelling corrections okay), and credit is listed as: Copyright 2011 by Alisa Raymond. All rights reserved.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

rainbowimmin newsletter (dinner/concert Sun 4/10!)

rainbowimmin newsletter: for womyn-loving-womyn of all colours in Greater Philadelphia

(a Cassendre Xavier Enterprise)

Wednesday, April 6, 2011


Table of Contents....

1) GREETING
2) RAINBOWIMMIN UPDATE
3) NEXT RAINBOWIMMIN EVENT
4) BUT WAIT, THERE’S MORE!
5) CREDITS AND OTHER PLUGGERY DEVICERY UNITS (AKA “SHAMELESS SELF-PROMOTION”)
6) FAREWELL BLESSING

Contents of Table...

1) GREETING
Dear wimminfolk!
I trust this letter finds you doing well :-)
I am thrilled to announce that for the first time in over 7 years, rainbowimmin is having an event and this release is also its first newsletter in a very long time!


2) RAINBOWIMMIN UPDATE
For years, I waited for “someone” or group to approach me to take over rainbowimmin, but no one ever did. I am no longer waiting and have decided to let go of the typical newsletter and/or event production model and simply find things I’d like to attend and post them as events. This reminds me that was the original idea and functioning of rainbowimmin to begin with – funny how as we “grow” we solo/ARTrepreneurs sometimes feel pressured to mimic other business models. We don’t have to do that. We can just do what makes us happy!


3) NEXT RAINBOWIMMIN EVENT
Gaye Adegbalola in concert!
Gaye was a long-standing member of Saffire: Uppity Blues Women (including blues piano-playing singer Ann Rabson, whom I had the pleasure of twice sharing the stage with).
Gaye is one of the first well-known singers to come out as a womon-loving-womon in the early 1990s, well before k.d. lang, Melissa Etheridge, and Janis Ian did, and for those of us black chyks who are always looking for examples of ourselves, Gaye is also melanin-enriched! You can learn more about her at www.GayeAdegbalola.com.
She will be performing at the esteemed acoustic listening venue the Psalm Salon, located in the Overbrook area of Philadelpia (accessible to SEPTA’s Thorndale/Paoli regional rail, and buses G and 65 among others.)

Further details:

Gaye Adegbalola sings at the Psalm Salon
Sunday April 10, 2011
8:00pm
Tickets $22 in advance (includes $2 service fee)
Psalm Salon
5841 Overbrook Avenue
Philadelphia, PA 19131
215-477-7578
www.PsalmSalon.com


4) BUT WAIT, THERE’S MORE!
For those of you who would like to meet and much before the show, I and a few of my friends will be meeting at a nearby restaurant before the concert. You’re welcome to join us, as this is an official rainbowimmin event. So, you’re actually very much wanted there!

rainbowimmin dinner (before Gaye Adegbalola’s Psalm Salon concert)
Sunday April 10, 2011
6:00pm
Saffron Indian Kitchen
145 Montgomery Avenue
Bala Cynwyd, PA 19004
Ph. 484-278-4112
Ph. 484-278-4113
www.saffronofphilly.com (Please note their homepage shows their city as being “Ambler”, but that is incorrect. They are indeed in Bala Cynwyd. But you don’t have to take my word for it – call them if you want more confirmation!)

RSVP requested: Please email rainbowimmin(at)yahoo.com if you plan on coming. Thanks!


5) CREDITS AND OTHER PLUGGERY DEVICERY UNITS (AKA “SHAMELESS SELF-PROMOTION”)
rainbowimmin newsletter & events is a project of Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls). Cassendre, as she prefers to be called, is an award-winning multi-media artist and community/arts organizer who coined the term “renaissance negresse” in 2002.
Between a whole lot of naps, dates, tomfoolery, malarkey, and shenanigans, Cassendre is the founder, director, and, where applicable, multi-media performing host of the following, which are all projects of Cassendre Xavier Enterprises:

Serious Creature Music (Indie record label, established in 1994). Musical projects: http://www.Cdbaby.com/artist/cassEndrExavier. Guided meditations: http://stores.lulu.com/cassEndrE.

ARtivist Publications (Small press, established in 1995): Multi-genre feminist writing (mostly spiritual, uplifting, overall health-related, and humorous) with a black, New Age, eclectic pagan, sexy, LGBT-friendly slant. http://artivistpublications.homestead.com.

The Women’s Writing & Spoken Word Series (Established 2002), a nurturing environment that celebrates women in the craft of multi-genre writing. Monthly reading at Moonstone Arts Center/Robin’s Books, in Center City, Philadelphia, featuring 2 female readers, and always including a Mixed-Gender Open Mic. Streams live, and only $5 Admission! Schedule and submissions: http://WomensWritingSeries.org.

Black Women’s Arts Festival (Established in 2003) Philadelphia’s 8th Annual - Thursday July 28th thru Sunday July 31sth, 2011 at multiple venues including the Rotunda, Moonstone Arts Center, and Big Marble Bookstore. Submissions and other information, such as how I can assist you in producing a BWAF in your neck of the woods, at http://www.BWAFphilly.org.


6) FAREWELL BLESSING
May you stay true to yourself in all ways.
May you continue to seek, be, and find community.
May you celebrate your life and all its joys.
May you receive all your heart’s desires, surpassing all your expectations – this, or something better, and may it be for the good of all.

~Cassendre

CONTACT US
Join the mailing list by sending a blank email to: rainbowimmin-subscribe@yahoogroups.com. After you send this email, please add to your Contacts/Safe list: rainbowimmin AT yahoo.com (remove spaces and “At” – add @).
Email us (no events, please): rainbowimmin(at)yahoo.com
Visit our Yahoo Group: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/rainbowimmin
Please, NO calls, texts, or emails to any other address other than what is listed here. Help a busy gal keep on the saner side of things, will ya? Thanks!



(c) 2011 by Cassendre Xavier Enterprises. All rights reserved. www.cassEndrExavier.com.

Friday, April 1, 2011

ME! ME! ME! CX Museletter “Joy at the Psalm 4/2”

ME! ME! ME! A Cassendre Xavier Museletter
The “Joy at the Psalm 4/2” ediccione, if you will. (As it were.)
Friday, April 1, 2011

A) GREETING
1) I WANNA BE ON THE MERV GRIFFIN SHOW!
2) SINGING WITH RUPERT WATES!
3) DID YOU SEE ME ON THE “COMPUTER TV” LAST NIGHT?
4) BUYING TICKETS IN ABSENTIA
5) BLAH BLAH BLAH, AND DUELING FOR GUMMI BEARS
Z) FAREWELL BLESSING

A) GREETING
Howdy, folkseses! How’s it goin’?
Fine, here. I loves me some overcast/rain so I’ve been pretty tickled these last few days, but it’s challenging because the general population doesn’t feel so much enamored of this weather. I’ve gotta hear rain being slandered hither and yon most of the time when it rains and I’m tired of it, iffn’ ya wanna know the truth!
But Moi digresseth (aka “digressifieth”):
I am here to share a story:

1) I WANNA BE ON THE MERV GRIFFIN SHOW!
So I’m busking the other day (Google it) and a new CX music appreciator stopped by to say how much he enjoyed my CD. He said, “You should be on...” and proceeded to list the latest talk shows. I responded, “Funny, ‘cause when you said that, the first thought I had was “Merv Griffin”. And he said, “Ohhhh, I’m sorry. I didn’t know you were that old!” High-larious! I thought about it later and realized why I had thought of Merv Griffin. Why had I gone so far back in my TV watchin’ experience? Surely, I have watched many shows, from Jimmy Kimmel to Craig Ferguson and so forth. I realized that Merv Griffin’s show was what I watched in my formative years as budding musician. I was coming home from school and watching his show, dreaming of the day I’d play that, or a similar stage. I merged myself with Diana Ross (later to be Sade, as most black female singers dream of being/like), for some reason always a huge ‘fro, and lights – always lights. I watched the Merv Griffin show, enjoying his curious combination of gaydar-alarming behavior and chyk-flirt-with-ism. He had chemistry with Zsa Zsa Gabor, dahling, and I thrilled when the always outrageous Grace “Grapes” Jones said, “Would you like a black lipstick kiss?” and planted one before I could squeal, “Omigod, a black woman is kissing a white guy on TV!!!” How far we have come, my friends. How far we have come.
But where was I??
Oh, yeah, some deud said I was old. But I am forever young at heart, so there!
Guess what I’m doing tomorrow?

2) SINGING WITH RUPERT WATES!
Saturday, April 2, 2011 8PM - $16/Advance, $20/Door
I'll be singing with Rupert Wates at The Psalm Salon, 5841 Overbrook Avenue, Philadelphia PA 19131, 215-477-7578 www.PsalmSalon.com . Rupert Wates online www.BiteMusicLimited.com, www.RupertWatesMusic.com, www.MySpace.com/RupertWates
I am so busy I haven’t taken the time to tell you this:
Rupert rocks. He is my friend and you should go because he’s a superb songwriter. I met him in NY in 2009. We’ve been friends ever since and I’m one of the many singers on his acclaimed project Joe’s Cafe. This is an album based on true stories of the American dust bowl era, whatever that is. History and geography are not so much my thing, but music? You’re damn skippy, and those songs are GOOD. I sing track 6 “Snow in New York” and it’s been getting play all over the world. Rupert and various musicians have performed this album live numerous times, culling local singers whenever he is able. I’ve sung with him in New York’s Metropolitan Room and now tomorrow.
Please know that you can watch the show live tomorrow from wherever you are, then anytime for free, because it’s archived!!! www.ustream.tv/channel/live-at-the-psalm-salon

3) DID YOU SEE ME ON THE “COMPUTER TV” LAST NIGHT?
If you missed our show last night at Ray Naylor’s, it also is archived. Visit the following link for details: CX singing with Rupert Wates on Ray Naylor's UStream internet show "Artists You Should Know About" www.RayNaylor.net
Incidentalment, Ray invited me to be his featured guest in autumn, so I’ll be sure to let you know about that rockin’ segment when it is schedulified (aka “scheduliated”).

I am very impressed with all this live streaming business. Another way cool idea is...

4) BUYING TICKETS IN ABSENTIA
The great Toshi Reagon (www.ToshiReagon.com) gave me the idea when around 2008 I noticed she not only hardcore plugs her shows (I didn’t have a naturally occurring need to use the beloved word “ass” in this newsletter, so of course I took the opportunity to put the word “plug” next to the word “hardcore”. See? I does what I cans :-), but she also encourages folks to buy tickets even if they couldn’t make it. A grand idea, that, being that she being a typical Aquarian (such as Yorz Trooli) has a wide breadth of fannery (aka “fannage”). Twixt MySpace, Facebook, and the newfangled Twitterocity, one has the capacity to have appreciators all across this green, green globe of ours. If someone in Arkansas wants to support our work, they can, simply by buying a ticket from afar.
And you can make your gift go further if you buy the ticket(s), then notify the venue that you’d like the ticket reserved for the artist you are supporting. Then we can offer those tickets to people we barter services with, or with human services organizations, such as homeless shelters. I’ve been at events before wherein some of the attendees were the recipients of such gifts. It’s a grand idea. $16 (the advance price of the Rupert Wates tickets) is not such a high number for most people, and it would do a great service to Rupert and us, as we not only fill seats but sell tickets for the venue as well. And the more people who appear, the more who are likely to either purchase CDs of the artists(s) or become fans.

5) BLAH BLAH BLAH, AND DUELING FOR GUMMI BEARS
Last thing, and I know I should’ve covered this in the “just the facts” section (the beginning), but the singers who will be with Rupert tomorrow: J.D. Malone, Craig Bickhardt, Gina (sorry, don’t know her last name), Stacey Lorin Merkl and myself, will not only be singing 2-3 songs of Ruperts, but in the 1st set, we will be performing our own songs – one each.
So, come to the show, watch us do our thing – what we were born to do. If you can’t be there, buy a ticket, or more than one ticket. Support the arts, and the arts will support you. Or something, I dunno. I’m bummed because I thought I was going to busk today, being a Friday and the 1st of the month and all, I thought it would’ve been a great day to do that, but alas, I may have missed my opportunity writing this here love letter to you good people. But it’s all good, as my people say (they do say that, you know. They really do! What? You dare to dispute me? You wanna take it outside huh? Fine. You take it outside. I’ll wait here and not pursue this matter any further as I really do prefer to avoid confrontation. So go ahead and put your little white glove back on, buddy, because I will NOT duel you, okay? Well, I mean, not unless by “duel”, you mean having a contest to see who can eat the most Gummi bears. ‘Cause that I could do. Seriously. And you wouldn’t have a chance. You’d be all cryin’ on your way home. Waaaaaah! Yep. That’s what you would sound like, ya jive turkey. Don’t get me started! Now where was I? Oh yeah!)
I shall do some writing and much needed napcatchuppage (aka “napcatchuppery”)!

Hope to see you tomorrow or at some future CX show.
Rock on with yourself that is oh so very, very....GOOD!
P.S. I just realized what I can do....practice for tomorrow show! Duh! :-)
P.P.S. And I have a hunch there might be some rewards for avoiding great numbers of people on a day notoriously known as “April Fool’s”, although it’s not nearly as ominous as “Mischief Night” :-)

Z) FAREWELL BLESSING
May you feel the glory and fullness of Life at every moment.
May you notice when you have a negative thought, and without judgment, put a positive thought next to it.
May you muster up the gumption to say the L word more often (love, love, love).
May you make loving yourself your top priority.
May this year harmoniously and joyfully bring you all your heart’s desires, surpassing all your expectations – this, or something better, and may it be for the good of all. And so it is.
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Make yourself a beautiful day!

In art and community,


Cassendre Xavier (aka Amethyste Rah, aka Amrita Waterfalls)
renaissance negresse (musician, writer, visual artist, actress)
http://www.cassEndrExavier.com

Founder, Curator and Musical Host of the Women's Writing & Spoken Word
Series (Est. 2002) http://WomensWritingSeries.org (Next event: Wednesday, April 20, 2011 streaming LIVE from the Moonstone Arts Center, and featuring The Ignant Intellectual, and Brooke Strauss! $5 includes Mixed-Gender Open Mic!)

Founder & Director of Philadelphia's Annual Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) http://BWAFphilly.org (Next event: Thursday, July 28th thru Sunday, July 31st, 2011 at the Rotunda, Moonstone Arts Center, Big Blue Marble Bookstore! Mid Submissions April 1 thru May 1!)

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